Episode 213 – Saturday, February 10th, 2018 (7711)

Barkada, tropa, circle of friends, or simply troops are always relating to a group of people who have their close friendships in a long time. They’re usually childhood playmates or former school classmates or friends. Especially from their early teens (mostly in high school), they started to build their friendships that will last forever (for at least until their adulthood). However, despite of having many friends most especially from the Feast, I don’t really have any tropa or group of friendship as of now.

Sometimes, I’m envious to other friends who have their own tropa. My beloved friend from Feast named Abby has her barkada from her high school in which their friendships are going strong for many years. They usually have their bonding moments like visiting the house of one of their friends, going to the mall together, eating many food, having drinking session, mountain hiking, and gathering in overnight swimming. These moments are absolutely not present in my life. However, Abby is not only one that has tropa. I have also some friends who have their barkada from high school. One of my former college classmates named Mhercy has her tropa from her high school who were also her schoolmates in college back then. And back when I was in high school, I encountered a circle of friends who were also my classmates in non-deaf school (that group was led by my pretty and smartest classmate who was also my first non-deaf crush), and it was called themselves as “T-flip”, well I guess. Continue reading “Troops”


My Possible Return to “Deaf World”

Episode 212 – Tuesday, February 6th, 2018 (7707)

While I am thinking to change my career totally from being a graphic artist into something new, I might decide to pursue one of my dreams to become a special education (SPED) teacher where I will teach students who have difficulties in speech and hearing (in other word, deaf). It is because I have knowledge in sign language since I studied in a deaf school back several years ago. However, I will need to go back school again to study education (for at least two years or so) and take a professional exam to become a certified teacher for special education. But I have another option to use my “hidden” talent for my profession – to become a sign language interpreter.

My 7 years working in graphics might not grow or fulfill my career life although I already have lots of working experience on that field. But I just want to change my working career totally because I’ve been so tired to have restless and harsh environment with skeptic boss, strict monitoring, being bullied by some co-workers, and too much plenty of overtimes (and overnights too) as a graphic artist/designer. Even though I like designing and creating layouts in graphics, my job might be the one of the most stressful because of its clients wanting to have perfect design and giving a short deadline to finish the design. I really regret why I chose the field in graphics as my profession rather than becoming a SPED teacher (although the former was somewhat related to my chosen college course as Information Technology or I.T. because I love to use computers). But if ever I chose educational course back in college, I would have become a teacher in my present life teaching special students who are deaf. Continue reading “My Possible Return to “Deaf World””

My First Month Review

Episode 211 – Friday, February 2nd, 2018 (7703)

Round 1 of 2018 has been done.

After celebrating New Year on the midnight of January 1, people feel they’re back to normal in the next following days. The first month has been somewhat a little bit ordinary for me. Although it’s still pretty much the same as last year, there were some happenings that I might be glad with some worries in my friendship and at my work.

January 2018 Printable Free Calendar -

Like my yearend report that I publish every end of the year, there’s the best… and also there’s the worst. I’m just starting the worst thing happened in my life in the month of January. Continue reading “My First Month Review”

My Career Life Has Been Worsened (?)

Episode 210 – Wednesday, January 24th, 2018 (7694)

In the past 7 years since I graduated from college, I have worked hard to achieve my dreams for my family and also for my future. But what happened to my career life throughout 7 years? Hmmm… still no progress! While some of my former college classmates and friends have already enjoyed their better lives because of their good job such as promotions or level-up into higher position and better salary, my career life has been somewhat the same as what I first started to work back in late 2010, thanks to those who “ruined” my career. The worst times that I had happened just last year when I became jobless and having hard time finding a new job. Until last November, I finally got a new job in Pasay; however, things might be worse for me because of uncomfortable job position that I ever have right now.

I don’t know what I am explaining about, but why doesn’t my career life become successful so far? Has this been worsened because of those distractions in the past 7 years that bother my future goals? Well, I will discuss for this episode where my career life doesn’t grow into the fullest because of these situations. Continue reading “My Career Life Has Been Worsened (?)”

Am I Anti-Social?

Episode 209 – Sunday, January 21st, 2018 (7691)

Throughout last weekend, I felt some loneliness because I didn’t talk with somebody else either personal (especially at work) or thru medium like phone via text (it’s already almost dead) and Facebook chat. After my “special friend” came to restore my happiness when we began to have our chat conversation, in later days, we’re starting to decline our time to chat each other (thanks to some signal/network problems and too much busy at work). But the worst is the occurrence where no one replies me at all in which causes me into sadness (with some anger because it feels like they “ignore” me or walang pumapansin). For most of the times, I just deactivated my Facebook account (but later I restored it back) for some reason as I knew they might forget me at all. Kalimutan na nila ako, wag na sila babalik sa buhay ko ah dahil lang sa “no reply”! Sorry for being harsh, but it’s true. That’s a sad reality in my life right now, and this is the reason why I’m always ALONE in my life right now. Walang kausap, walang kasama, palaging mag-isa sa lahat! Gosh! It’s New Year, but did my friends reply me? Hmmm… That’s very alarming!

Anyways, I feel I’m just “anti-social” person because, as you know, I’m introvert where I don’t want to join a group of friends bonding together. I know I will be “out of place” (OP) if I’ll join with them who are talking for themselves rather than talking with me. That’s why, for most of the times, I’ve never joined any group of friends or tropa, particularly from the Feast, a Light Group (LG) to share their experiences and problems. But I have asked you something, am I really an anti-social person? It’s because I feel I’m just alone in my life (ever since I became single or Post-LDR Era). Being alone is the loneliest part in my life right now. Even though I have a “special friend” who takes me thru chat with some care, it might not be enough to fulfill my happiness and to get rid my boredom and stress from work (thanks to my skeptic boss) and at home.

I have already written this topic almost two years ago about being anti-social on me. But this time, I will explain why I don’t have a social life in my (almost) entire life. Continue reading “Am I Anti-Social?”

My Life 5-10-15-20-25 Years Ago (for 1st Half of 2018)

Episode 208 – Wednesday, January 17th, 2018 (7687)

my life 5-25 years ago

It has been days after the year 2018 started. And I’m not pretty sure if it will be a great year for me because I still have problems that carried over from last year (or even 2016 or after June 2015 – the end of my (long distance) love life). Although my happiness has been somewhat restored thanks to my “special friend” who always contacts me thru Facebook messenger, there are still struggles especially in my family at home. As you know, I have no privacy at my Tent Office which will turn 20 years old (I’ll discuss this in July 2018) and lots of distraction at home where there’s not really enough to have a free time of my own. Utos pa more! Hehehe!

And speaking of 2018, I can’t believe that it has been 10 years ago, in 2008, when I started this series where I wrote the past experiences in my life in 5, 10, and 15 years ago. I was still in college back then, and my life was somewhat better even though my father was too pessimistic back then at home. And because the year 2018 has been fresh, I just want to share the past experiences and happenings around my life within 5-year interval.

Like most of my past episodes of this series (in early January and July), I had written it as “5-10-15-20” where I described my life in the past 5, 10, 15, and 20 years ago. But this time, I’m going to add the events that occurred in my life 25 years ago (which was 1993, and most of you hadn’t been born yet). Well, before going back in my “time machine”, I will share my present life this 2018: Continue reading “My Life 5-10-15-20-25 Years Ago (for 1st Half of 2018)”

My 2017 Yearend Review: My Love Life – Still Looking But… Almost

Episode 207 – Monday, January 8th, 2018 (7678)

my love life in 2017

(This was supposed to be published before the New Year, but because I had other commitments and tiredness from work within the final week of December, this was already overdue to release this episode on my Journal. Sorry for this delay.)

Last year, 2017, I didn’t know what I was going to do in my love life because, for almost whole year, I was still searching, looking for a better love. From the infamous “love disaster” happened in 2016, I wanted 2017 to start something new and to explore another opportunity that somebody would open my heart again after two years (within Post-LDR Era). Although it was granted when I met more new friends after one wonderful retreat in February, it might not be enough to fulfill my happiness until someone would restore my happiness at the end of the year after months of boredom.

Well, that was my love life in 2017 where it might be better than in the past few years since Post-LDR Era, but still in the end, it remained no “love relationship” to open my heart again. I will discuss this for my yearend review for the last year, 2017. Continue reading “My 2017 Yearend Review: My Love Life – Still Looking But… Almost”