Episode 199 – Thursday, November 30th, 2017 (7639)
On November 30, 1997, I, together with my mother and my elder brother, went to Quiapo, Manila to take an exam for the acceleration where I would jump my grade level into the higher level. I was in Grade 3 together with my two deaf classmates, and if I would pass this exam, I would skip Grade 4 and instead I would study either Grade 5 or Grade 6 in the next school year. But unfortunately, I didn’t pass the exam which occurred for the whole day that I just remember I was so hungry after several hours of taking and answering the quizzes which made me a headache. My two deaf classmates passed the exam, and eventually they jumped to Grade 5 and Grade 6 in 1998 rather than studied in Grade 4 where, in my reality, I had been (as well as they were no longer my classmates).
Well, that was 20 years ago to be exact. And I don’t really have any photographic memory about taking an acceleration exam. I don’t remember who endorsed me to take it in which I would possibly jump as higher as Grade 6 instead of entering Grade 4 on the next school year. But I’m just thinking about this. What if I passed the acceleration exam? Would my school life change? Would I be graduated too early? And how about my old deaf classmates who remained with me in one classroom for years? Well, I will discuss the possible scenario if ever I accelerate into the highest level. Continue reading
Episode 195 – Tuesday, November 14th, 2017 (7623)
It has been a long, long weekend for me and others who work in the Metro because of ASEAN summit. But it might be boring for me because of the distractions at home. And right now, I’m not feeling well because of changing weather (it was stormy just last Thursday night but then suddenly it became sunny in the next day) and working conditions at my new job in Pasay where there’s too much cold inside the workplace while it’s so hot outside the building.
In my current age, I think I really need to set up my own life because I’m already old enough to build for my adulthood. Within early 30s, I suppose to be married with someone and having children for one happy family. However, because I have many financial and family problems, I’m still stuck living with my parents who are within 70s and my elder siblings whom one of them, my elder brother, is 15 years older than me (making a huge age gap between us). My only relative who has the closest age differential is my niece at her age of 23 (turning 24 this December). But others… well they’re not included in the millennial generation (because they’re more than 40 in their age). Continue reading
Episode 193 – Tuesday, October 31st, 2017 (7609)
Finally, after months of boredom, having distractions at home, and of course, being jobless, I already found a new job. Even though it’s too far from home (about 25 miles away) and I will have only one day of rest because of 6-day working week, I really need a job that might be perfect for my career even there’s a quite pressure unlike in my former beloved job in San Pedro. Ayyy… to be honest, I still can’t move on from the best memories and things that I had while I was working in San Pedro for three wonderful years including the year 2014 – my best year ever. (And then… I’m starting to cry… but I’m just kidding.)
Because I will be busy enough for 6 days on my new job which is located in Pasay City, I’m pretty sure that I will have a minimal time to write my new episodes on My Tent Journal in the future (hopefully it will reach its 200th episode before the end of this year). I’m sure I can’t do my writing (or typing, rather) inside the workplace or else I’ll be caught down, hehehe! And because I don’t have internet connections at home (although I can browse internet thru 4G data on my phone but most of the times it has weak signal), I usually rent a computer on a high-speed and more compatible internet café near the entrance of the subdivision, and I hate using a computer in other rentals because of obsolete OS, not compatible browser, and has slow internet. I think I will do for my Journal once per week depending on the stories that I can give from my mind (and my memory, too). Continue reading
Episode 192 – Thursday, October 26th, 2017 (7604)
I guess I already have a new job, but I don’t feel that finally I’m no longer a jobless person. However, during 6-7 months of intervening from working career, I don’t have any income to increase my savings from the bank. Instead, I made spending my time to apply job openings anywhere in Laguna and in the Metro Manila (mostly southern parts), so that almost half of my savings were already spent from travel expenses, food (of course, I don’t want to be hungry while on a job interview or something), and printing lots of my resumes and portfolios as well. My savings were from my backpay after my beloved job in San Pedro was dissolved; however, almost half of them were paid to my monthly healthcare which has been temporarily stopped because I don’t really have any job at all. Continue reading
Episode 186 – Wednesday, September 27th, 2017 (7575)
In my current situation, I feel unhappy because of many struggles and problems that I’ve faced right now. Health problems in my family have affected my life at home because of my eldest sister suffering her illness. Distractions are always there especially at home because of my elder brother who has been jobless for three years where his bedroom is “shared” my bedroom thru one door and of my parents. And I have been exhausted in waiting for some miracles in my life because until now I still have no job (for 5-6 months) and no girlfriend (for 27 months) at all. That’s why my life has been so boring right now because of these freaking problems making my happiness ruined.
But there are things that I might be thinking of. These situations might not happen if I supposed to live in a comfortable and happy life and the distractions won’t come. What if… all these things that already happened in my life didn’t happen at all? What if… I might not be the same as what I have been right now? And what if… these good and wonderful things that I had before still exist until now?
Since I have been living in the City of Santa Rosa, Laguna for 25 years (actually just 24 and I’ll explain it later on), I just want to share about 25 what ifs that might change my entire life forever. These might alter my present life in the fullest. Few of these are already discussed in my past episodes in this blog, but I now explain more alternate scenarios that might not be the same as what I have right now. Continue reading
Episode 173 – Monday, July 31st, 2017 (7517)
I have been out of work for almost five months, but I still don’t understand why I can’t find a right company that is suitable for me to work as a graphic artist/designer. I have already shown my impressive interviews, exam performance, and even my portfolios, but sadly I’m still not qualified to be one of the newest employees of the company. I don’t know their reasons, but I guess because of my background (I was studying in a deaf school) or of having some speech problems (although I now have a clear speech). And I think they might be impressed on my portfolios that fill with my artworks, but I don’t know why.
Being graphic artist/designer might be the one of the simplest but complicated jobs that I’ve ever done in my working career. When I was young, I loved creating drawings on my old notebooks. But I never learned a lot about graphics and multimedia when I was in college although I got some lessons from the Information Technology (I.T.) course that I took. Most of the lessons that I learned and studied from college were programming and creating a software system. But I never pursued these after college graduation. Instead, I went other field to become a graphic artist because that was one of my instincts when I was young as I loved drawings. When I had my first ever job, I immediately learned the techniques in graphic designing and software such as Adobe Creative Suites. And after years of work, I have lots of experiences about this field. Continue reading
Episode 170 – Monday, July 17th, 2017 (7503)
It has been 12 years since my life was changed from so-called “Deaf World” to the ordinary world where I’ve been now belonged. Yeah, for those who don’t know about my past life, I was from an old world where there were deaf people who became my long time friends. It was because I studied in a deaf institution particularly Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD) where I was a “deaf” student for many years. In August 2004, when I was in fourth year (senior) high school, I left PSD to go to the United States for the exchange program where I studied at Alabama School for the Deaf (ASD) with lots of most memorable moments. However, when I came back home after almost a year in the U.S., my school life was shifted, once again, from being “deaf” to an ordinary student together with non-deaf classmates at International Montessori School (IMS), a non-deaf school located just few meters away from my home. This move led the end of my life in the “Deaf World” as I never came back at PSD to resume my fourth year high school (my graduation at ASD was not accredited due of exchange program).
The main reason why I was transferred to IMS from PSD was my avoidance from the PSD Batch of 2006 led by my “deaf mortal enemy”, just called her “Nita”. After involving a controversy back in 2004, she became my adversary because of her “favoritism” at school (thanks to the teachers who were once my allies and became bandwagons after favoring her) and slapping me one time during my class because of her anger. She was chubby, intelligent, and consistent first honor in her batch (of 2006). She had many “allies” who were her classmates in section one. Even after the incident and when I was in the U.S., I was still mad at her because of what she did to me that almost ruined my reputation. That’s why it was a good move for me to be transferred from PSD to continue my high school studies at IMS with new classmates who were non-deaf. Continue reading
Episode 158 – Monday, June 5th, 2017 (7461)
Today, most of the Filipino youths all over the country have been returning back to their school for the opening of the classes. Most are excited, some are nervous, but some of the kids are afraid and crying after being left by their parents/guardians or whatever. Last episode, I discussed about my life in the past being a student where there were lots of good and bad memorable moments happened during my school life. But some of my friends were asking me, “Why did you study in a deaf school even though you can hear and speak?” Hmmm… that’s complicated question that probably until now it has been a “mystery”. But I simply answered why I put there instead of a “normal” (non-deaf) school before because of my speech deficiency (or in other word: pagkabulol or tongue-twisted). Yeah, even until today, I’m still tongue-twisted every time when I speak or talk with somebody.
However, despite of my ability to hear and to speak (not so loud and clear), I was still enrolled in a deaf school which was Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD), and I studied there for a long time with consistent honors which made me into “supremacy” over my classmates who are totally deaf. Well, that’s already written in my history books where my school life was begun at PSD back in 1994 and continued being a “deaf” student for 11 years until, when I came back from my wonderful experiences in the United States, I was surprisingly transferred to a non-deaf institution which lasted for 5 years until my college graduation in 2010. Continue reading
Episode 152 – Monday, May 15th, 2017 (7440)
It’s hard to find a right place where I can rent a computer in an internet café because it might contain computer virus when I insert my USB and obsolete operating system (OS) which is still using Windows XP (ewww…). There’s no internet connection at home, so that I need to rent for an internet to publish my new stories for my journal (blog). I use to publish only once every week instead of twice per week due of having losing my job last month. And while I’m still looking for a new career/job, I have a lot of free time to explore job openings around, mostly in the metro (well, I miss working in the metro because I had worked in the province for three years). Recently two weeks ago, I explored far places in the metro from my home in Laguna to look something that will be my “forever” in my working career (and in my love life, too). But most of the times, I just enjoyed my leisure to take back some places that had been once part of my “past” (not my past love) that had been part of my life (mostly from during the first years of “Post-Deaf World Era”). Last Tuesday, I visited a non-government organization in Ortigas that helped me to bring me in the United States to become an exchange student back in 2004. When I was there, I saw many new faces that were far different from the last time when I visited almost 12 years ago (although one of my former batch mates (who also became exchange student) was not present, and she’s now their head director, I think). And then last Friday, I went to Commonwealth, Quezon City to visit a government agency for persons with disabilities (even though I was scolded by one of my beloved coordinators after confessing about being jobless and my financial problem with my family). Continue reading
Episode 136 – Tuesday, March 7th, 2017 (7371)
There’s one loveteam in the Philippines where they made kilig moments and were loved by most Filipinos. AlDub is considered as one of the most famous and most popular loveteams because of their magic. After they were accidentally paired on one segment of the longest-running noontime show, they never thought they would become so popular, trended million tweets worldwide, and endorsed several advertisements in every aspects of media. This made many Filipinos to forget the situations happened in our nation and instead they’re having fun to discuss AlDub-related topics such as Kalyeserye (series on the streets). During most second half of 2015, almost whole nation were watching every afternoon because of AlDub, and the rest is history. Now, they have ongoing primetime TV series (teleserye for Philippine TV) that was begun last week, and as usual, the show has been trended every night as well as registered higher ratings (because of this, my family now watches two TVs separately, but I don’t even watch TV anymore because it’s so non-sense at all). Continue reading