Episode 199 – Thursday, November 30th, 2017 (7639)
On November 30, 1997, I, together with my mother and my elder brother, went to Quiapo, Manila to take an exam for the acceleration where I would jump my grade level into the higher level. I was in Grade 3 together with my two deaf classmates, and if I would pass this exam, I would skip Grade 4 and instead I would study either Grade 5 or Grade 6 in the next school year. But unfortunately, I didn’t pass the exam which occurred for the whole day that I just remember I was so hungry after several hours of taking and answering the quizzes which made me a headache. My two deaf classmates passed the exam, and eventually they jumped to Grade 5 and Grade 6 in 1998 rather than studied in Grade 4 where, in my reality, I had been (as well as they were no longer my classmates).
Well, that was 20 years ago to be exact. And I don’t really have any photographic memory about taking an acceleration exam. I don’t remember who endorsed me to take it in which I would possibly jump as higher as Grade 6 instead of entering Grade 4 on the next school year. But I’m just thinking about this. What if I passed the acceleration exam? Would my school life change? Would I be graduated too early? And how about my old deaf classmates who remained with me in one classroom for years? Well, I will discuss the possible scenario if ever I accelerate into the highest level. Continue reading
Episode 198 – Thursday, November 23rd, 2017 (7632)
Earlier this month, I finally got a new job somewhere in Pasay City where I worked, not only in designing, but also making printing collaterals as well. However, my new job is too far away from home, about 25 miles away, which is quite inconvenient because of long travel with heavy traffic (although I have some plans to rent a bedspace or a room), and my working schedule is 6 days per week which makes me so tired to work and getting rest for only one day. But I need a new job because of my future or else my life will be devastated forever! Oh well, I had been jobless for months before I finally found the new one which is far different from my old beloved job in San Pedro.
To be honest, I still can’t move on from my previous job in San Pedro, Laguna where I could stay there anytime, explore internet, watching sports via live streaming, use and chat on Facebook, and lots more which gave me a freedom to do anything at the workplace especially while waiting for a work task. Just imagine that, during the first months of 2017, I had worked for the longest time in San Pedro with lots of convenience, and then right now, I’m now working in a printing company in Pasay with some restrictions and restless jobs (imagine 6 working days!). From comfort to somewhat discomfort in the workplace though. Continue reading
Episode 197 – Tuesday, November 21st, 2017 (7630)
Last time I discussed about dominance where these made my life happy and wonderful to the highest level. These records and accomplishments that happened in my life before might never be done again in the future. I really, really miss these best memories few years ago where these were present. In this second part, I will discuss the other things that made me and my life so dominant.
For now, no one wants me to communicate thru text message (or even chat on Facebook) because they might be busy in their own works. And most of the times, I have lost my desire to communicate with someone because they might not reply me at all. But back few years ago, text (short messaging service or SMS) communication was so dominant in my life.
Having conversation thru text was started as early as 2002 when our family had our first and only one cellphone that we had. However, we only used for limited time due of limit SMS capacity of the phone (which fit only 50 or less SMS) and unlimited text promos didn’t exist back then. But when I was in college, text communication began to rise up. Continue reading
Episode 196 – Saturday, November 18th, 2017 (7627)
While I’m writing for my next article/episode, I’m just thinking about using my laptop which has been used for almost 6 years. But there are some problems on my personal laptop where most of the buttons on the far right side don’t work anymore. That’s why I can’t use the left and the right button (especially when I use for design layout) as well as “delete” button. Also, the metal case near the VGA connector (on the upper left side of my laptop) is already opened up every time when I lift the screen monitor. Even though my laptop is already old (older than my love relationship, hehehe), I don’t have any enough money to repair or even to buy for a new one especially since I got already a new job after being jobless for months. I really hope to save more for my future needs. And one more thing, my USB, the oldest one that I used for almost 7 years, has been already broken! Gosh, there are so many documents (particularly the pictures that I made for this blog) that are totally lost because of damned USB port that I hardly pulled out from the back of CPU (and this was not a virus). I had three USBs before, but my other one was also broken because of the same situation (USB port problems from a PC or laptop) while the other one was given to my former “love” for her school project few years ago. I still don’t know if she still uses it because we’re no longer lovers though or… it has also been gone or thrown as she already “forgets” me from her heart, I guess.
Anyway, thankfully it’s almost a cool season because just few days away before Christmas season. And I really hope my Christmas this year might be better compared to the past few years since Post-LDR Era, but this might not surpass my best Christmas ever which happened 5 years ago (in 2012). And speaking of this, I have some things that might not have been surpassed in my future life. Dominance is the meaning where most of my things and events once existed to the highest level throughout my past life. These will never be the same again and will never happen to surpass the dominance in the future (only if possible). Continue reading
Episode 194 – Sunday, November 5th, 2017 (7614)
It’s already November, and finally I got a new job! Yehey! I had been jobless for 6 long months before, and hopefully this new opportunity will be forever and ever and no more bullying! Hahaha!
But 6 months ago, I felt being a “traitor” because I easily gave up from a job in Cabuyao after working for only one month. I simply blew it because of the situation that I didn’t really appreciate which was bullying. Yeah, I was bullied but in verbal form like teasing. And speaking of teasing, I still remember, when I was a young student in a deaf school, I felt I was betrayed by somebody because of simple teasing. These were my good deaf classmates that some had been with me since preparatory (way back 1994). I thought they had great respect to me because I was a consistent honor student back then (which lasted until 2004 or before I went to the United States for the exchange program). But when we’re in the third or fourth grade, I felt they changed even though they’re still my good deaf classmates for years until 2004. Continue reading
Episode 193 – Tuesday, October 31st, 2017 (7609)
Finally, after months of boredom, having distractions at home, and of course, being jobless, I already found a new job. Even though it’s too far from home (about 25 miles away) and I will have only one day of rest because of 6-day working week, I really need a job that might be perfect for my career even there’s a quite pressure unlike in my former beloved job in San Pedro. Ayyy… to be honest, I still can’t move on from the best memories and things that I had while I was working in San Pedro for three wonderful years including the year 2014 – my best year ever. (And then… I’m starting to cry… but I’m just kidding.)
Because I will be busy enough for 6 days on my new job which is located in Pasay City, I’m pretty sure that I will have a minimal time to write my new episodes on My Tent Journal in the future (hopefully it will reach its 200th episode before the end of this year). I’m sure I can’t do my writing (or typing, rather) inside the workplace or else I’ll be caught down, hehehe! And because I don’t have internet connections at home (although I can browse internet thru 4G data on my phone but most of the times it has weak signal), I usually rent a computer on a high-speed and more compatible internet café near the entrance of the subdivision, and I hate using a computer in other rentals because of obsolete OS, not compatible browser, and has slow internet. I think I will do for my Journal once per week depending on the stories that I can give from my mind (and my memory, too). Continue reading
Episode 190 – Saturday, October 21st, 2017 (7599)
In my present situation, I no longer have better things that I once had before. It’s because I don’t have a stable job, love life, a happy and healthy family, freedom, and of course, happiness. Almost every day, I rent a computer in the internet café to apply jobs online. Almost thrice a week, I wash the clothes for our family. And almost every time, I help my father to throw his urinal (he can’t do it alone due of his disability after suffering mild stroke two years ago) and my sister to rise up from her bed due of her illness (she might lose her stable job because of this). And almost every day, I have done nothing but to wait for some miracles in my life and also in my family as well.
Within 7 days of week, Saturday is one of few times that I have something “happy”. It is the time for me to have enough rest from household tasks or my “free time” only for the short time in my present life. Yeah, this is my present time. But 3-5 years ago, Saturday was so special for me especially the times when I had a better job and wonderful love life.
Episode 188 – Wednesday, October 4th, 2017 (7582)
I still remember when I was a young student at the Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD) many teachers and fellow students who were hard to spell my first name (by the way, my real name is just weird but unique). They couldn’t write my name because they said it was weird or foreign-like. They misspelled my name mostly. And also they couldn’t even pronounce it. I don’t understand why my family gave me a “weird” name when I was born. Why not usual names like John or Joseph or Matthew or… any Biblical names or whatsoever? Arghhh… But that’s already my real first name that I’ve used in my entire life. Tent Tertional is just my pen name or screen name, and I’m still using this for most of my writings, including this blog, for more than 20 years. Continue reading
Episode 187 – Saturday, September 30th, 2017 (7578)
September almost ends, and I’m still jobless (and loveless)! Ayyy… but I’m just changing the topic. Before we’ll flip our calendars into October, this month is somewhat remembered as the “birth of my love life”. Really? I think so, but it has been 20 years since my love life was emerged into my life. Although all of the events about my love life during Deaf School Era (or Pre-2005 era) have been “erased” and no longer in my history books, my love life was started to grow 20 years ago when I had a crush… oh well, I don’t want to discuss this because it has been already “past” (my history has been rewritten). Technically, since 2005 (or Post-2005/Post-Deaf World Era), I had several pretty girls that became my crushes, either in school or in work. However, none of these became my girlfriend at all (except the one who was an unknown stranger that later became my textmate and my first-ever girlfriend). And the worst, some of them had some bad memories in my life which caused them into my “enemies”. What?
To be honest, some of my former crushes in post-2005 era are no longer my friends in the present because of complicated “past” (maybe there’s an episode that I wrote two years ago about regret that I had once considered them as part of my friendship.) It’s either they frustrated me in courtship (basted, I mean) or having bad memories that hurt my feelings. And coincidentally, all of them were born in the month of September or within the zodiac sign of Libra (which occurs between September 23 and October 23)! Oh my! In this episode, I just want to share about my former crushes turning into somewhat “enemies”. Continue reading
Episode 186 – Wednesday, September 27th, 2017 (7575)
In my current situation, I feel unhappy because of many struggles and problems that I’ve faced right now. Health problems in my family have affected my life at home because of my eldest sister suffering her illness. Distractions are always there especially at home because of my elder brother who has been jobless for three years where his bedroom is “shared” my bedroom thru one door and of my parents. And I have been exhausted in waiting for some miracles in my life because until now I still have no job (for 5-6 months) and no girlfriend (for 27 months) at all. That’s why my life has been so boring right now because of these freaking problems making my happiness ruined.
But there are things that I might be thinking of. These situations might not happen if I supposed to live in a comfortable and happy life and the distractions won’t come. What if… all these things that already happened in my life didn’t happen at all? What if… I might not be the same as what I have been right now? And what if… these good and wonderful things that I had before still exist until now?
Since I have been living in the City of Santa Rosa, Laguna for 25 years (actually just 24 and I’ll explain it later on), I just want to share about 25 what ifs that might change my entire life forever. These might alter my present life in the fullest. Few of these are already discussed in my past episodes in this blog, but I now explain more alternate scenarios that might not be the same as what I have right now. Continue reading