5 Years Ago: I Attended The Feast for the First Time

Episode 233 – Wednesday, July 18th, 2018 (7869)

Entering this July, I attended Sunday Feast at SM City Santa Rosa for the first time after missing for several weeks due of personal reasons. And it was also my first time to attend The Feast since the tragedy happened in my family last May. It meant that I hadn’t attended Feast for almost two months, and in the whole month of June, I didn’t attend any single Sunday Feast including their third anniversary last June 10th entitled Gra3tude. But two Sundays ago, after my long absences, I finally attended Feast, led by Bro. Dreus Cosio, with a brand new talk series.

If this month signifies my comeback to The Feast after having a long absence, three years ago was a different story. Entering July 2015, I attended Sunday Feast in its new location at SM City Santa Rosa after being relocated from Central Mall Biñan. It was my first time to attend The Feast inside SM Cinema although it was not yet jam-packed, having only one session, and no holy mass that was held back then. But after attending one time, I hadn’t attended The Feast for two months because I was heartbroken due of recent break-up. July 2015 might be probably my worst feeling during the time because of loneliness.

But anyway, despite of having inconsistencies in life (because everybody doesn’t make perfect), I really don’t realize that I’ve been still attending (and serving) at The Feast for the longest time! Yeah, and this month I’m so glad that I’ve been part of The Feast since 2013. It has been five years since the Feast came into my life. That’s even longer than my long distance love life which only lasted for three years, or my longest longevity working for one company (in San Pedro, within less than 38 months), or my entire college life (four years)! Continue reading “5 Years Ago: I Attended The Feast for the First Time”

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My Life 5-10-15-20-25 Years Ago (for 2nd Half of 2018)

Episode 232 – Sunday, July 15th, 2018 (7866)

my life 5-25 years ago

It’s already the halfway of 2018. But during the first half of that year, many struggles had already happened throughout my life including the tragic situation in my family last May (you know what I mean). Last January, at the start of the year, I wrote an episode that described the events happened in my life in the past 5, 10, 15, 20, and 25 years ago. If this 2018 may be considered as a tragic year for me even though it has been in the middle, 2013 was my happier year because of having a love life. 2008 and 2003 were my school years where the former was one of my good years because I happily accompanied with my pretty classmate while the latter was somewhat a bad year because of controversies. And finally, 1998 and 1993 were the years where I was so young to explore many things to happen.

Right now, I’m going back in time to explore the past memories that I had in the 5, 10, 15, 20, and 25 years. But before that, I will share my present life this July 2018. Continue reading “My Life 5-10-15-20-25 Years Ago (for 2nd Half of 2018)”

What If… LDR Still Exists Today?

Episode 231 – Sunday, July 1st, 2018 (7852)

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On June 25, 2015, I thought that day was just like any other. At the start of the day, I had my usual routine when I prepared for my work and travelled in a nice flow of traffic going to San Pedro. At the workplace, I was so comfortable to have no stressful jobs and strict bosses (because they’re in Macau during time). Even though my distant girlfriend didn’t text me for few days due of no cellphone load, I was confident that we’re still keeping in touch right after our anniversary date almost two weeks ago. After work, I got go home and ate my delicious dinner. In retrospect, that June 25, 2015, Thursday, was just an ordinary day for me. No one knew that it would be the last day of one of the happiest moments in my life. And I never thought that day would be the end of my colorful and happy love life after three cheerful years.

On that night, when I got home from work and after eating my lunch, I was so glad that she texted me for our usual distant communication as a girlfriend/boyfriend. However, later on, I had no idea what happened next. She informed me thru text messages that she was caught by his eldest brother after he saw our sweet pictures on her cellphone while we’re dating for our third anniversary few weeks ago. She also told me that her father already knew about our “secret” long distance relationship. I was so surprised when she said that she needed to break our relationship in order of her father. Actually, I accepted her decision as we ended our three-year LDR (despite of having met only 15 times). But the most painful thing that I ever heard was when she wanted me to forget her and to look for a lady more deserving than her. This made me so hurt, and she was crying during that time. After that, she thanked me for what I had done for her with happiness in the past three years. Then, I sent my final text message to her telling my final goodbye, and she replied it for the final time to thank me so much.

Three years later, I didn’t feel any sadness or regret on that heartbroken day three years ago. But I didn’t care because I was too busy enough at my new job despite of having an antagonist who’s too overacting so much. Like my career life which has been horrible right now, my love life is seemed to be empty from what I had three years ago while my two other colleagues, who, like me, are graphic artists, in my new job have their own girlfriends. Well, I don’t mind that they have own love while I have none. But, in this episode, I’m just wondering… what if my LDR with my distant textmate/girlfriend still exists today? What if our break-up on that night didn’t happen, and we’re still distant lovers? And what will this affect in my current situation?

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Trilogy: 3 Different Periods in Post-LDR Era

Episode 230 – Sunday, June 24th, 2018 (7845)

Some Hollywood movies have divided into three parts or sequels which are called trilogy – a set of three works related in theme. My favorite trilogy movie that I ever watched was the Back To The Future series. Released in 1985, 1989, and 1990, I only watched these three parts of that movie for the first time when I was in the United States back in 2005. And speaking though, back then during my high school days, I had studied three different schools – PSD, ASD (both are deaf schools) and IMS (a non-deaf school) in a span of only one year from July 2004 to July 2005. Also, I had attended fourth year high school thrice and had participated in the Junior-Senior (JS) Prom thrice in these three different schools. I think I had a “trilogy” in my school life back then.

Last June 10, the Feast SM Santa Rosa celebrated its third anniversary (after relocating from Central Mall Biñan), and the theme of that celebration was called “Gra3tude”. Unfortunately, I didn’t attend the special event of the Feast SMSR due of grief from the death of my eldest sister (thus, I haven’t attended Feast since May 6). But today, I really don’t mind that it has been three years since My Tent Journal was launched. Yeah, three years had so many incidents happened in my life including the break-up of my long distance relationship (LDR) with my textmate. Obviously, it has been also three years when I became loveless and single after having a LDR which also lasted three years.

From publishing my first ever episode of my journal (blog) and eventually the break-up until the darkest times, I just want to share my experiences in the past three years. Within three years, my era has been called the Post-LDR Era with a series of heartbroken and loveless moments, boredom, slight happiness, and grief. In that era, I divide it into three different periods that I ever encountered during the three-year span.
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My First Ever Crush During Summer

Episode 227 – Thursday, May 17h, 2018 (7807)

(I haven’t been writing my journal for weeks due of freaking hectic work schedule that makes me fatigue, having problems in my family particularly to my eldest sister who has been confined at the hospital for two weeks, and poor ventilation at home due of summer time.)

Kids out there are really enjoying their summer vacation while the school is now on break. But for those career people like me, there’s no summer vacation except there are some summer outings or gatherings provided by the company (however, I’ve never experienced to have a summer company outing with my officemates and provided by the company, except for 2016). It’s so unfortunate for me to not experience summer outing with my officemates because of heavy works that I have worked frequent overtimes (and probably an overnight). My work is now like “hell” without getting any rest, and that makes me fatigue, not just only in the workplace, but also in travel where I commute almost 25 miles away from home for 6 stressful days with traffic and inconvenience. That might be the worst summer time that I ever have at my work right now. Continue reading “My First Ever Crush During Summer”

Waking Up So Early

Episode 226 – Friday, April 27th, 2018 (7787)

Waking up dedicates as the start of a new day, seeing the bright sunrise (if it’s not rainy), and having a fresh air in the morning. From a long and nice sleep, waking up in the morning is the most important thing that we ever have in our everyday lives. But in my present life, I’m now waking up with the dark sky and without the presence of the sun (although I see its little brightness lately due of summer time). I’m waking up because of my job where I prepare for myself to travel about 24 miles away from home with lots of traffic and inconveniences for my work 6 days per week. Yeah, I rise up around 5:15 in the morning just to prepare for my work, and during Mondays, I wake up as early as 4:30 due of rush hour where there are lots of passengers waiting for a long queue at the bus terminal going for their work or school further (this is already a usual situation where I’ve been late most of the times). Since I began to work at a printing press company in November 2017, this has been my usual routine where I always wake up too early in the morning. Continue reading “Waking Up So Early”

Snobbish Moments

Episode 225 – Tuesday, April 17th, 2018 (7777)

Last holy week, I went to Enchanted Events Place to attend Kerygma Lenten Recollection (KLR): So Loved where I was a servant (for Day 1) and an attendee (for Day 3). I didn’t attend Day 2 because of fatigue and need to have an enough rest. But on the third day of the event (Black Saturday), I decided to attend the event even though I was so late to come because I was waiting for others to accompany going there. While waiting at the tricycle terminal at Balibago Complex, I saw my beloved friend, just called her “Gail”, coming together with her friend to the place where I stood. However, I felt that she somewhat “snubbed” me even though I was trying to wave my right hand (with my cellphone) to her just only few inches away. She just rode inside a tricycle going to the event without noticing me. I was wondering if did she “snub” me at the terminal or… was she just “blind”? Hmmm…

This situation was somewhat similar last year when we went to the Calamba, Laguna together with our fellow servants from Feast SM Santa Rosa for our summer outing. I became moody because she had other companion sitting inside the bus, so that I felt alone sitting with other Youth servants who were so noisy during that time. When we arrived to our destination, I just “snubbed” her even though she greeted me after I got off from the bus. Hayyysss… I felt I was so snobbish during that time, but days later I apologized her about that incident. Continue reading “Snobbish Moments”