I Want To Be On The Top Again

Episode 176 – Monday, August 14th, 2017 (7531)

I’m so bored, and I can’t make my own free and relaxing time at home because of many distractions. At one time, I found an old movie from my laptop that I got from my former mentor and friend from the Feast four years ago. I already watched this movie before, but I just want to replay a Christian movie entitled “Facing The Giants” (2006) where one man coaching American football team in high school had many struggles in his life especially for his struggling team. But when he was tired for his struggles, he found himself miserable and started reading Holy Bible. Thus, it was the beginning of unexpected blessings in his life. After having a losing streak, he shared God’s words to his football players and made them into motivation leading his team to win several games en route to the championship (his underdog team, called as the Eagles, upset the heavy-favored Giants a.k.a. “Superteam Monstars” that choked and blew 23-14 lead, hehehe). His old car was replaced into new ones. And his wife became pregnant after failing many times. While I was watching that movie, I felt a mix of tears and joy because he, who was struggling in the beginning, began his winning streak to achieve his triumph. Continue reading

5-10-15-20 (for 2nd Half of 2017)

Episode 166 – Friday, July 7th, 2017 (7493)

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It’s already halfway through of 2017, but until now I’m still looking for happiness because of many struggles happened during the first half of this year. I thought this year would be my best and happiest year, but after all happiest moments happened during the first two months of 2017, what happened next? Evil distractions strike my current life again! Oh no! I became unhappy and bored because I lost a job, not once but twice, and my desire to text or to chat with somebody. Boredom has been there again after having (short-lived) happiness at the start of 2017. Gosh!

But anyway, last January, I published an episode about the things and events happened in my life 5, 10, 15 and 20 years ago. And now, it’s already July and entering the second half of 2017. I will discuss about the same with slight differences compared to what I had done during the first half. To clarify, all these events, including the technology and gadgets that I had, movies that released during that year, music, and hit TV series, happened within the second half in the past 5, 10, 15 and 20 years. Continue reading

Why I Am Still Not Married Yet?

Episode 160 – Sunday, June 11th, 2017 (7467)

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June is the month of many couples who are excited to be married. Marriage is the significance of entering a new family for the couples, especially the young ones. Still remember when I was young, my elder siblings and my niece or nephew had attended the wedding of one of our relatives or their friend as bridesmaid, grooms men or flower girl. However, despite of these, I have never attended any single wedding at the church almost in my whole life. The only occasion from my memory that I attended a wedding was when I was about 4 or 5 years old as flower boy (or something like that) with my partner who, incidentally, was my childhood playmate that up to this day she’s remained a “mystery”, and the wedding was held in non-Catholic chapel (I think it was Iglesia ni Cristo because of my relative’s religion). Up to this day, I have never attended any single wedding of my friends or relatives because they didn’t even invite me. Hehehe!

Two years ago, one of my former officemates in San Pedro invited me and my boss to attend the reception after he married with his long-time partner. Earlier this year, one of my Feast friends, who serve in Media Ministry, married with her long-time boyfriend that entered her marriage life. These newlywed couples are younger than me (within late 20s except for my former officemates who is already in mid-30s) while I am still single and unmarried! My God! I’m already 30, but still I have no girlfriend, fiancée, or even live-in partner! Damn! Continue reading

My (Not) First Job

Episode 156 – Tuesday, May 30th, 2017 (7455)

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(Note: this may contain some harsh criticisms that I expressed so badly and some displeasures about the incident that I did before.)

It has been few weeks after I lost my job, and I feel so bored at home because I’m just idle for almost whole day and my house is so hot like an oven. I still remember when I had a new job in Cabuyao before I just stayed in the air-conditioned office to get rid the heat outside. But every time when I started my new day of work there, I got so sweated on my arrival because I took my bike going there from home. And not only that, I needed to find the keys covered with sticker tapes from the main office to unlock several padlocks in order to open the many doors/gates of the building. These caused my time consumed because I must do this in time before logging in on the timecard or else I would be late after opening these locked gates and doors of the office. Whew… At the time of work, I supposed to take my job so easily, but my officemates started to take some annoying jokes that I felt they verbally bullied me. I knew they’re just joking at me, but I didn’t like the way that they joked while I was busy working in front of the computer. This caused me pressure and filled almost anger because of what they did which hurt my feelings. Continue reading

The Cycle: Best-Bad-Good-Worst

Episode 149 – Wednesday, April 26th, 2017 (7421)

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Good day! Right now, I have to remember my past memories where there were lots of the best and most memorable moments happened to make me and my life wonderful and happy. Last episode, I wrote about my three best eras in the past 20 years in my life, and I really missed the best moments that I had in happiness, freedom, and in love life. But in exchange, my best memories turned out into bad incidents where distractions came unexpectedly into my life. Although I needed to move on from the best, my life has been just a mediocre with some good (not the best) memories; however, I didn’t enjoy because of one worst case scenario which almost ruined my life. But then suddenly, my worst incidents turned into the best, and the routine has been on and on. Continue reading

My 2016 Yearend Review: The Best and The Worst

Episode 117 – Friday, December 30th, 2016 (7304)

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Advanced Happy New Year! And before the year 2016 ends [so badly], let me share this special episode to you about my best and my worst in my life during that year.

As you know, the year 2016 was so awful year for me because of bad happenings occurred in my life. Distractions, financial disaster, frustrations, and love problems were the main reasons why I was not so happy in the past 12 months. Although there were some important events happened this year like the presidential elections, sporting events that I watched, the deaths of celebrity and sports icons, natural calamities, and the national events where most Filipinos were arguing over the political issues at home, most of the times were not so satisfying, and I’m still frustrated with these things. As I published this for the final time this year, there are the lists of the best and the worst happenings in my life of 2016: Continue reading

100

Episode 100 – Monday, October 24th, 2016 (7237)

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Good day! There’s another milestone that is already achieved on my blog.

This is the 100th episode of My Tent Journal that I started since June 24, 2015. And I can’t believe that I have written 100 episodes already about my stories from my past up to present, and “what ifs” in my current situations.

100 is just a number, but I have encountered about the number in the past. On June 12, 1998, I witnessed the 100th anniversary (Centennial) of Philippine Independence. That was happened when I began to study in fourth grade elementary. During my school days at Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD), I had always gotten the perfect score of 100 in all exams, in all subjects. I think about 90% of all exams (quizzes, periodical, and final) that I got 100 in the past 10 years at PSD (despite of “not” being deaf). But sadly, I rarely got 100 in most exams when I was studying in a non-deaf school (fourth year high school and college). And I still remember about my first and my last 100 days in the United States as an exchange student with lots of most memorable moments. Continue reading

My Traumatic Experience

Episode 88 – Thursday, September 1st, 2016 (7184)

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It’s already September, and it’s the start of “ber” months where we’re so excited that Christmas is already near (although it’s too early to start putting Christmas decorations). My goodness, I’m so thankful that it’s the beginning of a new month, and I want to have a new chapter in my life. Unlike last month, I was so pissed from the unexpected events that ruined my silent and loveless life.

Well, as you know, last month was so awful for me, not only in my love life that I almost had an “illegitimate” girlfriend, but also in my finances. And it was supposed to be my “month” where I celebrated my birthday, but right after, it was turned into one of my worst nightmares in my whole life. Although I got a major, major mistake that I made (posting my mobile numbers in a public website where everyone could search for their textmates), there was one stranger who contacted me thru text messages in the first place, but in later days she made me so stressful and hypnotized me almost to have a “love relationship” with her. I don’t want to tell about it again because I’ve already mentioned in past two episodes that I published. And that made me so traumatic. Continue reading

Another Love Mistake… Again?

Episode 86 – Friday, August 26th, 2016 (7178)

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Last episode, I shared my unexpected story about one of my newest textmates (just called her “Textmate A” better known as “You-know-who” version 2.0 because of her wearing eyeglasses and being chubby) who quickly fell in-love with me. This may sound so crazy because we only met for the first time a day after we contacted thru text messages (thanks to my post on a website where people were searching for their textmates). I don’t understand why the girl fell in-love to me immediately, but I notice that she’s also in urgency (as I am) searching for her future partner. For instance, when I met her personally to have a “date” last August 13th, I had some love feelings on her, but I didn’t immediately consider her as my new girlfriend (despite of having holding hands together) after she asked me about our “relationship”. Continue reading

Giving Up… Almost

Episode 82 – Wednesday, August 3rd, 2016 (7155)

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I’m going crazy in the past week about things that so annoying to me. Last Friday when I arrived home from work, I got a mail from a friend of my host (or foster) mother in the U.S. But the mail was arrived home while I was still at work. Of course, everybody at home got curious on the mail that supposed to be received by me personally and not others. When I got this mail, my mother asked me about it. I hate to be asked about my personal things! She noticed that the mail from unknown which she thought from a Chinese friend. I answered to her about it that it’s from a friend of my foster mother back in the U.S. But because my mother is already old and deafened, she didn’t understand what I was explaining about. Continue reading