What Are The Main Causes Why I’m Miserable? (Really???)

Episode 246 – Tuesday, October 9th, 2018 (7952)

Good day everyone. Well, right now, I’m still distressed, waiting for some miracles in my life. For three straight months, I still have no permanent job after I left a job that really made me discomfort because of an overacting antagonist then I decided to not report for work anymore without any official absence. But being jobless has caused me even worse. While looking for a new job so hardly, my bank savings have been little by little decreasing due of expenses that I’ve done almost every week. Because I don’t have a job right now, I don’t have any monthly salary at all. My finance is never fulfilled because, last May, I withdrew almost entire savings for the higher hospital bills of my eldest sister who unfortunately died after being released from the hospital. It feels like that my patience at work for 7 years has been wasted. Also while I don’t have big enough savings (it has been almost already 4-digit amount), I can’t be able bonding with my friends as well as finding a one true love that will be my “forever”. And I can’t settle for my own independence because I’m still single and living with my parents who are senior citizens. My gosh! I’m 32, but no job, no big savings, no love life, and no happy life! Am I really such an unfortunate person with all misfortune around my life?

While I’m here without all of these, some of my friends – former high school or college classmates, or former officemates – enjoy their own lives (I guess) because they are enjoying their own lives… almost. Some are already married and having children and might be living in their own away from their parents. Some are already (new) parents giving their first (born) child. Some are already in a love relationship or engaged going to be wed soon. Or some enjoy their leisure, travelling around the country with friends like swimming, hiking, sightseeing, and even in abroad because of their big enough savings from their hard work in their good company. And in fact, they’re younger than me. They’re really fortunate, right? But how about am I? Do I have these right now? Continue reading “What Are The Main Causes Why I’m Miserable? (Really???)”

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Singles Night Out: Why Haven’t I Attended?

Episode 245 – Monday, October 1st, 2018 (7944)

singles night outEvery time when I talk with someone thru Facebook, they’re asking me to have some bonding with our friends from Feast SM Santa Rosa. I know that I’m too much introvert because I don’t really have any close connections to my friends particularly in Singles Ministry where a bunch of singles (and pretend to be “singles”) are gathering. Some happenings that they gather are the Light Groups where they share their personal stories on their coffee dates (particularly right after Feast session), Love Someone Today (LST), Intercessory Ministry, Love Life Retreat occurred annually in February, and lately the Singles gathering or Singles Night Out. Oh well, I already attend these kind of occasions (although I didn’t complete LST course due of personal reasons) except the last one.

This gathering for Singles are held monthly where single (and pretend to be “single”) people meet for fun and with blessings from God. I don’t have any idea about this, but it was actually started early this year after one of my Feast friends named Bethz encouraged me thru Facebook chat to attend the event. However, due of being tired from work during the time (thanks to the frequent overtimes at my old job in Pasay and long travel with traffic going home), I was unable to attend Singles Night Out where most of my beloved friends from Feast SM Santa Rosa were there including the one who have been chatting with me for a long time. I didn’t have any regrets for not participate in this social event. But in later months, my beloved friend, who had first invited me, again let me to attend another Singles Night Out. Continue reading “Singles Night Out: Why Haven’t I Attended?”

Good Things Happened During the Early Years of Post-LDR Era

Episode 244 – Saturday, September 29th, 2018 (7942)

In the past almost 39 months, my life has been despair right after having a happy, love relationship in June 2015. When the long distance relationship ended 39 months ago, I became so lonely and alone. But despite of this, during the first years of Post-LDR Era, I was still blessed because I had still a nice and convenient job, abundance, and serving with God. I lost my love life, but still I had a better job and full of abundance. However, in the later months, everything was, little by little, disappeared. My beloved job was dissolved. My family became unhealthy. My finances became almost crumbled. My career life became ruined because of the distractions and disheartened supervisors. And the tragic came in my family when my eldest sister died due of her illness.

It seems that the Post-LDR Era dragged me down from the top and happiness. I never thought that this era would serve me as a “move-on” progress during the first years. But instead, it made my life even worsened in the latter years. That’s why I divide this era, the Post-LDR Era, into three different periods in the past three years – the Heartbroken Times, the Good Times, and the Dark and Tragic Times. The former occurred from my recent break-up in late June 2015 up to November 2016 while the second one occurred during Christmas 2016 up to right after losing my beloved job in San Pedro. And the last one came even worse, since May 2017, from being jobless up to the tragic times where many bad things happened, not only in my life, but in my family. Continue reading “Good Things Happened During the Early Years of Post-LDR Era”

What If… My Friendship With Abby Never Exists?

Episode 242 – Sunday, September 16th, 2018 (7929)

When I was in the United States back in 2004, I met a nice deaf friend named Abby. She became my crush though, but I didn’t take any feelings to her because of having her relationship during the time. But during Christmas season almost 14 years ago, she gave me an inspiration when we talked each other with pleasure. That was one of the most memorable moments that I ever had during my [exile] life in the U.S. But 12 years later, another “Abby” came into my life.

Her name is Abegail Maldo, a pretty, charmed lady from San Pedro, Laguna. Calling her as Avhie (as per her usage) or just simple Abby, she became my nice friend from the Feast who gave me happiness from being heartbroken and sadness two years ago. So, she was the reason why my life was restored to be alive from being dull back in 2016 – the time when it was some sort of mediocrity in the Post-LDR era. But I didn’t know why I befriended her after I found her Facebook in March 2016, and I added her to become friends. Although she accepted me as her new friend, however, we didn’t have any communication until August 2016 when I first greeted her a simple “Hello”. In the following months, we started to have our Facebook chat conversation sharing our personal stories. But despite of friendship thru chat, we had never met personally. Even though I had already spotted her in the Singles Ministry with her friends while attending The Feast in SM City Santa Rosa, we couldn’t even meet in a small world inside the cinema. I didn’t know why, but it wasn’t until on January 15, 2017. While I was sitting and waiting for the start of the first session, she approached me as I was so surprised that finally she met me in person. Continue reading “What If… My Friendship With Abby Never Exists?”

My Usage of Internet

Episode 241 – Tuesday, September 11th, 2018 (7924)

Our society is now focused in the world of internet. It is accessible where we can communicate our loved ones thru chat, video streaming, and e-mails. It is entertaining so that we can watch our favorite shows thru YouTube and other videos. And it is more knowledgeable where we can research whatever we want to know everything in this world. Life is not complete without an internet.

Here in my home country, the Philippines, about half of our population have access thru internet either connecting thru broadband and Wi-Fi or renting a computer spending few hours of using internet. Even our mobile phones can connect internet with surfing promos thru 4G. In my home, however, I don’t have any internet connection (as of now), but I can access internet thru phone with the usage of surfing promos of the cellular providers (even though the 4G signal is quite slow especially during peak hours). Also, if I have enough money (because I’m still jobless until now), I go to the net café to rent a computer for few hours usage of internet to download some stuff and to publish my blog weekly. Continue reading “My Usage of Internet”

One of My Unsolved Mysteries Is Finally Solved!

Episode 237 – Sunday, July 29th, 2018 (7880)

Last year, I published a story about the things that are remained mysteries throughout my life. These might be controversial or simply mysterious that up to this day I can’t even solve or find the main cause. But there’s one mystery that had been remained unsolved for many years in my life is finally answered. I didn’t investigate or search any answers about this which had been a mystery for 25 years! But these answers finally came thru when my family had a grief due of the loss of one of my siblings recently last May.

During the time when my eldest sister died at home after almost a year of battling her illness, the sad news spread throughout our relatives and her friends via text messages, phone calls, and even social media such as Facebook. And on the fifth day of the wake, there’s someone visiting to the wake at home where I didn’t even recognize who they were. I just came back home from my job hunting in Laguna when I spotted them talking with my other eldest sister. I found out that they were the former neighbors of my family when we’re still living in Paco, Manila almost 30 years ago, and they were also the former high school classmates of my two twin eldest sisters. When they saw me upon my arrival, they still recognized me, but I didn’t even recognize them because I was so young when the last time we met in Paco (I was around 1-2 years old, I guess). Suddenly, one of them named Tess informed me that my former childhood neighbor, Irish, has been already married to a Malaysian guy and now lived in her husband’s home country. Because of this, I finally got an idea about Irish who had been a mystery for me after 25 years! I couldn’t believe that one of the mysteries of my life had been finally solved because of one answer. Continue reading “One of My Unsolved Mysteries Is Finally Solved!”

5 Years Ago: I Attended The Feast for the First Time

Episode 233 – Wednesday, July 18th, 2018 (7869)

Entering this July, I attended Sunday Feast at SM City Santa Rosa for the first time after missing for several weeks due of personal reasons. And it was also my first time to attend The Feast since the tragedy happened in my family last May. It meant that I hadn’t attended Feast for almost two months, and in the whole month of June, I didn’t attend any single Sunday Feast including their third anniversary last June 10th entitled Gra3tude. But two Sundays ago, after my long absences, I finally attended Feast, led by Bro. Dreus Cosio, with a brand new talk series.

If this month signifies my comeback to The Feast after having a long absence, three years ago was a different story. Entering July 2015, I attended Sunday Feast in its new location at SM City Santa Rosa after being relocated from Central Mall Biñan. It was my first time to attend The Feast inside SM Cinema although it was not yet jam-packed, having only one session, and no holy mass that was held back then. But after attending one time, I hadn’t attended The Feast for two months because I was heartbroken due of recent break-up. July 2015 might be probably my worst feeling during the time because of loneliness.

But anyway, despite of having inconsistencies in life (because everybody doesn’t make perfect), I really don’t realize that I’ve been still attending (and serving) at The Feast for the longest time! Yeah, and this month I’m so glad that I’ve been part of The Feast since 2013. It has been five years since the Feast came into my life. That’s even longer than my long distance love life which only lasted for three years, or my longest longevity working for one company (in San Pedro, within less than 38 months), or my entire college life (four years)! Continue reading “5 Years Ago: I Attended The Feast for the First Time”