Remembering All About Tent

Episode 178 – Sunday, August 20, 2017 (7537)

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All About Tent was my premier journal during my college life from 2007 to 2009.

My TENT Journal is a personal blog that is published thru internet where I share about my everyday life and its surroundings that affect my life. That’s what I am doing right now, writing a story for one whole episode, posting to my blog, and then publish and share to everybody who wants to read my journal. I started the idea two years ago to publish my articles about my life thru the internet. And in the past two years, I can’t imagine I have published more than 175 episodes! It has been two years of thinking, writing (or rather typing on my beloved laptop), and publishing my blog every single week or so.

But it’s hard to imagine that my Journal is NOT my first “love” to write articles. Even though it’s my first time to write and to publish my stories thru internet, it’s just a successor of my old commentary journal when I was in college. Continue reading

Bullying

Episode 177 – Wednesday, August 16th, 2017 (7533)

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Last Sunday, I attended The Feast in SM City Santa Rosa to listen a new series called Taboo where it was discussed about abuse. There’s one type of abuse that somewhat I was so related, and that was a verbal and emotional abuse where somebody tells a victim any inappropriate words as an act of bullying. And yes, indeed, I was once a victim of this type of abuse.

Bullying is one of the bad things that I really hate. Even since I was a young kid, I was bullied, ironically, by my eldest siblings most especially my elder brother. Because I’m the youngest among them (with a huge age gap), they underestimated me as a “servant” (yung laging inuutusan). Sometimes, they “abused” me verbally and emotionally, so that I felt cried with anger after the confrontation. Even I already grew up, they still mistreated me like my elder brother who was teasing me as he called my name sounding like a goat. But well, that was my past. Right now, because I’m already in adulthood stage, they no longer mistreat me so badly. Continue reading

What If… I Didn’t Become A Graphic Artist?

Episode 173 – Monday, July 31st, 2017 (7517)

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I have been out of work for almost five months, but I still don’t understand why I can’t find a right company that is suitable for me to work as a graphic artist/designer. I have already shown my impressive interviews, exam performance, and even my portfolios, but sadly I’m still not qualified to be one of the newest employees of the company. I don’t know their reasons, but I guess because of my background (I was studying in a deaf school) or of having some speech problems (although I now have a clear speech). And I think they might be impressed on my portfolios that fill with my artworks, but I don’t know why.

Being graphic artist/designer might be the one of the simplest but complicated jobs that I’ve ever done in my working career. When I was young, I loved creating drawings on my old notebooks. But I never learned a lot about graphics and multimedia when I was in college although I got some lessons from the Information Technology (I.T.) course that I took. Most of the lessons that I learned and studied from college were programming and creating a software system. But I never pursued these after college graduation. Instead, I went other field to become a graphic artist because that was one of my instincts when I was young as I loved drawings. When I had my first ever job, I immediately learned the techniques in graphic designing and software such as Adobe Creative Suites. And after years of work, I have lots of experiences about this field. Continue reading

What If… PSD Batch 2006 Became My Classmates

Episode 170 – Monday, July 17th, 2017 (7503)

It has been 12 years since my life was changed from so-called “Deaf World” to the ordinary world where I’ve been now belonged. Yeah, for those who don’t know about my past life, I was from an old world where there were deaf people who became my long time friends. It was because I studied in a deaf institution particularly Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD) where I was a “deaf” student for many years. In August 2004, when I was in fourth year (senior) high school, I left PSD to go to the United States for the exchange program where I studied at Alabama School for the Deaf (ASD) with lots of most memorable moments. However, when I came back home after almost a year in the U.S., my school life was shifted, once again, from being “deaf” to an ordinary student together with non-deaf classmates at International Montessori School (IMS), a non-deaf school located just few meters away from my home. This move led the end of my life in the “Deaf World” as I never came back at PSD to resume my fourth year high school (my graduation at ASD was not accredited due of exchange program).

The main reason why I was transferred to IMS from PSD was my avoidance from the PSD Batch of 2006 led by my “deaf mortal enemy”, just called her “Nita”. After involving a controversy back in 2004, she became my adversary because of her “favoritism” at school (thanks to the teachers who were once my allies and became bandwagons after favoring her) and slapping me one time during my class because of her anger. She was chubby, intelligent, and consistent first honor in her batch (of 2006). She had many “allies” who were her classmates in section one. Even after the incident and when I was in the U.S., I was still mad at her because of what she did to me that almost ruined my reputation. That’s why it was a good move for me to be transferred from PSD to continue my high school studies at IMS with new classmates who were non-deaf. Continue reading

5-10-15-20 (for 2nd Half of 2017)

Episode 166 – Friday, July 7th, 2017 (7493)

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It’s already halfway through of 2017, but until now I’m still looking for happiness because of many struggles happened during the first half of this year. I thought this year would be my best and happiest year, but after all happiest moments happened during the first two months of 2017, what happened next? Evil distractions strike my current life again! Oh no! I became unhappy and bored because I lost a job, not once but twice, and my desire to text or to chat with somebody. Boredom has been there again after having (short-lived) happiness at the start of 2017. Gosh!

But anyway, last January, I published an episode about the things and events happened in my life 5, 10, 15 and 20 years ago. And now, it’s already July and entering the second half of 2017. I will discuss about the same with slight differences compared to what I had done during the first half. To clarify, all these events, including the technology and gadgets that I had, movies that released during that year, music, and hit TV series, happened within the second half in the past 5, 10, 15 and 20 years. Continue reading

Similarities Between Jose Rizal and Me

Episode 163 – Monday, June 19th, 2017 (7475)

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Today is the 156th birthday of Dr. Jose Rizal, our national hero that he fought our country for freedom against the Spanish regime during late 19th century. He was a great genius to distribute his works in the Philippine history. He was a physician, educator, engineer, businessman, historian, farmer, botanist, essayist, linguist, musician, poet, novelist, painter, psychologist, sculptor, surveyor, traveler, zoologist, and more. But because of him, some of my things and happenings were almost similar to what Rizal did during his times. In this episode, I just want to share you about my things that are almost or somewhat similar to our national hero. There are my top 10 lists: Continue reading

What If… I Didn’t Enter In A Deaf School?

Episode 158 – Monday, June 5th, 2017 (7461)

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Today, most of the Filipino youths all over the country have been returning back to their school for the opening of the classes. Most are excited, some are nervous, but some of the kids are afraid and crying after being left by their parents/guardians or whatever. Last episode, I discussed about my life in the past being a student where there were lots of good and bad memorable moments happened during my school life. But some of my friends were asking me, “Why did you study in a deaf school even though you can hear and speak?” Hmmm… that’s complicated question that probably until now it has been a “mystery”. But I simply answered why I put there instead of a “normal” (non-deaf) school before because of my speech deficiency (or in other word: pagkabulol or tongue-twisted). Yeah, even until today, I’m still tongue-twisted every time when I speak or talk with somebody.

However, despite of my ability to hear and to speak (not so loud and clear), I was still enrolled in a deaf school which was Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD), and I studied there for a long time with consistent honors which made me into “supremacy” over my classmates who are totally deaf. Well, that’s already written in my history books where my school life was begun at PSD back in 1994 and continued being a “deaf” student for 11 years until, when I came back from my wonderful experiences in the United States, I was surprisingly transferred to a non-deaf institution which lasted for 5 years until my college graduation in 2010. Continue reading

When I Was A Student…

Episode 157 – Thursday, June 1st, 2017 (7457)

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Millions of Filipino children will be back to school on the first day of classes which will be on this Monday, June 5. But I’m thinking that I really miss being a student attending classes at school when I was young.

For all kids and youths out there, tomorrow will be back to school once again. And many of the parents are so busy buying school materials for their children. Tomorrow will be the start of school year 2017-2018 where millions of young Filipinos will gather to enter their first day of classes in most public schools in our country. Most of them are so excited to see their old friends and classmates (as well as their crushes) again while the others are entering in school for their first time that mostly are nursery or kinder, and they usually cry after being left by their guardians in school. But some are the new ones after being transferred from their old school to another making them as new classmates.

I still remember when I was just a young student I felt I hated to be at school because I would rather like to play all the time at home. But in the years to come, when I grew up as a teenager, I realized that I needed to study hard to accomplish my dreams. Just before becoming a career man, although I’ve still no job as of now, I faced the tough challenges that I needed to overcome as a student such as exams, thesis, and projects to pass to the next level. These took many years to achieve the challenges from a young kid to a young man with full of knowledge. Continue reading

More Mysteries… Unsolved

Episode 154 – Sunday, May 21st, 2017 (7446)

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I was so upset when one of my USB storages was broken after using for a long time. I didn’t understand what happened to my USB after inserting on my laptop many times without being recognized or read from the Windows system. Although I have some back-ups from this USB storage, I really regretted because it was the biggest USB capacity that I ever used which had the capacity of 16 gigabytes. For now, I have used only one USB left which is the smallest capacity storage of (less than) 4 gigabytes and is the oldest since I bought it around 2010. It has been used mostly to store the articles for my journal every time when I rent a computer in an internet café. I had three USBs before during the time when my life was so grateful. Since one of my USBs has been broken, I had another one USB which is black and has the storage capacity of 8 gigabytes that I gave to my former girlfriend for her college studies during our (long distance) relationship. But sadly I don’t know if she still keeps it, along with other items that I gave to her, after our break-up almost two years ago. This is still a “mystery” for me.

Anyways, last month, when I still had a new job, I discussed a topic about the mysteries throughout my life that they have still been unsolved. Things and events that involved my life have been remained mysteries such as having my former playmate, the controversial transfer of my former deaf enemy (she now rested in peace), and the unknown teenager who became my partner in JS Prom. But these are just the few that I had discussed last month. In this episode, there are more unsolved mysteries that were once happened throughout my life either from a school incident or at work. Continue reading

The Few, The Merrier

Episode 153 – Friday, May 19th, 2017 (7444)

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We’ve seen many vehicles around the roads that make heavy traffic. We’ve seen many people in the metro which make us so crowded (overpopulated, I mean). We’ve spent many hours to work hard at the office or even at home. But oddly, we don’t have a lot of money to save and to spend. Here in my beloved country, there are only few millionaires, and there are some in the middle class (including me and my family even though sometimes we’re struggled for finances), but sadly most Filipinos are poor. Well, anyways, I’m not talking about money because I’m not encouraging any financial teachings or networking to become rich. This episode is all about not so many things that I want to share but is about the few. Yeah, I’m not sharing a lot of stories about my current life, but yet I just want this simpler. Continue reading