Loss of Appetite

Episode 164 – Friday, June 23rd, 2017 (7479)

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In the past several weeks since I lost my job, my life became boring once again. I have no work, no girlfriend, encountered distractions at home, and every time when I’m going around after my job application, I just walk around the mall alone, unaccompanied, and lonely. And even I have my cellphone that I’ve done anything to get rid my boredom, still I feel so bored because nobody text or chat me on my phone. I feel there’s something missing in my life right now.

Since post-LDR era which it has been now two years already, my life is now so dull with mediocrity. I’m always thinking about my past life where it was way, way back better than what I have right now. I really miss the moment. But since I became single and loveless, I began to lose my appetite to do for my happiness. My happy days were gone. Continue reading

Similarities Between Jose Rizal and Me

Episode 163 – Monday, June 19th, 2017 (7475)

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Today is the 156th birthday of Dr. Jose Rizal, our national hero that he fought our country for freedom against the Spanish regime during late 19th century. He was a great genius to distribute his works in the Philippine history. He was a physician, educator, engineer, businessman, historian, farmer, botanist, essayist, linguist, musician, poet, novelist, painter, psychologist, sculptor, surveyor, traveler, zoologist, and more. But because of him, some of my things and happenings were almost similar to what Rizal did during his times. In this episode, I just want to share you about my things that are almost or somewhat similar to our national hero. There are my top 10 lists: Continue reading

The Day That Made Me So Happy

Episode 162 – Saturday, June 17th, 2017 (7473)

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Hi there! Today is June 17, and it’s just an ordinary day for everyone, including yours truly. But just few years ago, June 17 was a special day for me because it was the day that made me so happy most especially in my love life. Exactly five years ago, I didn’t expect that I finally had a girlfriend who was my long distance textmate. Yup, she’s my first (and only) textmate that I ever had after she accidentally sent a wrong text message to me in one breezy afternoon of February 2011. And I never thought that she was the “key” to break my 7-year love drought (or having no girlfriend) and the curse that I had after transferring from so-called “Deaf World” in 2005. Continue reading

Why I Am Still Not Married Yet?

Episode 160 – Sunday, June 11th, 2017 (7467)

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June is the month of many couples who are excited to be married. Marriage is the significance of entering a new family for the couples, especially the young ones. Still remember when I was young, my elder siblings and my niece or nephew had attended the wedding of one of our relatives or their friend as bridesmaid, grooms men or flower girl. However, despite of these, I have never attended any single wedding at the church almost in my whole life. The only occasion from my memory that I attended a wedding was when I was about 4 or 5 years old as flower boy (or something like that) with my partner who, incidentally, was my childhood playmate that up to this day she’s remained a “mystery”, and the wedding was held in non-Catholic chapel (I think it was Iglesia ni Cristo because of my relative’s religion). Up to this day, I have never attended any single wedding of my friends or relatives because they didn’t even invite me. Hehehe!

Two years ago, one of my former officemates in San Pedro invited me and my boss to attend the reception after he married with his long-time partner. Earlier this year, one of my Feast friends, who serve in Media Ministry, married with her long-time boyfriend that entered her marriage life. These newlywed couples are younger than me (within late 20s except for my former officemates who is already in mid-30s) while I am still single and unmarried! My God! I’m already 30, but still I have no girlfriend, fiancée, or even live-in partner! Damn! Continue reading

What If… I Didn’t Enter In A Deaf School?

Episode 158 – Monday, June 5th, 2017 (7461)

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Today, most of the Filipino youths all over the country have been returning back to their school for the opening of the classes. Most are excited, some are nervous, but some of the kids are afraid and crying after being left by their parents/guardians or whatever. Last episode, I discussed about my life in the past being a student where there were lots of good and bad memorable moments happened during my school life. But some of my friends were asking me, “Why did you study in a deaf school even though you can hear and speak?” Hmmm… that’s complicated question that probably until now it has been a “mystery”. But I simply answered why I put there instead of a “normal” (non-deaf) school before because of my speech deficiency (or in other word: pagkabulol or tongue-twisted). Yeah, even until today, I’m still tongue-twisted every time when I speak or talk with somebody.

However, despite of my ability to hear and to speak (not so loud and clear), I was still enrolled in a deaf school which was Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD), and I studied there for a long time with consistent honors which made me into “supremacy” over my classmates who are totally deaf. Well, that’s already written in my history books where my school life was begun at PSD back in 1994 and continued being a “deaf” student for 11 years until, when I came back from my wonderful experiences in the United States, I was surprisingly transferred to a non-deaf institution which lasted for 5 years until my college graduation in 2010. Continue reading

When I Was A Student…

Episode 157 – Thursday, June 1st, 2017 (7457)

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Millions of Filipino children will be back to school on the first day of classes which will be on this Monday, June 5. But I’m thinking that I really miss being a student attending classes at school when I was young.

For all kids and youths out there, tomorrow will be back to school once again. And many of the parents are so busy buying school materials for their children. Tomorrow will be the start of school year 2017-2018 where millions of young Filipinos will gather to enter their first day of classes in most public schools in our country. Most of them are so excited to see their old friends and classmates (as well as their crushes) again while the others are entering in school for their first time that mostly are nursery or kinder, and they usually cry after being left by their guardians in school. But some are the new ones after being transferred from their old school to another making them as new classmates.

I still remember when I was just a young student I felt I hated to be at school because I would rather like to play all the time at home. But in the years to come, when I grew up as a teenager, I realized that I needed to study hard to accomplish my dreams. Just before becoming a career man, although I’ve still no job as of now, I faced the tough challenges that I needed to overcome as a student such as exams, thesis, and projects to pass to the next level. These took many years to achieve the challenges from a young kid to a young man with full of knowledge. Continue reading

The Cycle: Best-Bad-Good-Worst

Episode 149 – Wednesday, April 26th, 2017 (7421)

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Good day! Right now, I have to remember my past memories where there were lots of the best and most memorable moments happened to make me and my life wonderful and happy. Last episode, I wrote about my three best eras in the past 20 years in my life, and I really missed the best moments that I had in happiness, freedom, and in love life. But in exchange, my best memories turned out into bad incidents where distractions came unexpectedly into my life. Although I needed to move on from the best, my life has been just a mediocre with some good (not the best) memories; however, I didn’t enjoy because of one worst case scenario which almost ruined my life. But then suddenly, my worst incidents turned into the best, and the routine has been on and on. Continue reading

My Three Best Eras in 20 Years

Episode 148 – Thursday, April 20th, 2017 (7415)

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In the past 20 years, there were many good things happened throughout my life. These made me and my life into happiness, having freedom, and love. There were several good and some memorable moments happened within the last 20 years from 1997 to 2016, but I analyzed the years that I had where there were many best and most memorable things happened during their stretch.

I really found out that there were only three periods or eras in three different decades which were the best and the most memorable in my entire life. In late 1990s, I had my dominance and having “superpower” mostly in my school life. In mid-2000s, my life was so wonderful because of staying abroad for a year. And in 2010s decade, I had a happy and colorful love life despite of having long distance. Well, these were considered as my best eras in the past 20 years. And in this episode and because it’s throwback Thursday, I will discuss these three most memorable eras/periods in my life. Continue reading

Publicity

Episode 144 – Sunday, April 9th, 2017 (7404)

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What’s up? It has been a long time that I didn’t post any new episodes of my journal because of my busy time at my new job so that I couldn’t have a free time to post on my blog because the computer at my work has lack of plug-ins and interrupted internet connection. And during the past week, I got sick because of different weather conditions. There’s a hot weather where I get lots of sweat, but sometimes there’s also a cold weather especially at early evenings while I’m taking my bicycle going home from work. Also, I feel so cold while working because of air-conditioning inside the office. Oh well, I hope I’ll get feeling well before Kerygma Lenten Recollection (KLR) where I’ll serve for the third time since 2014 (except last year). Continue reading

Reconnected With My Former Love

Episode 143 – Friday, March 31st, 2017 (7395)

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In the past several weeks, I have been confused that there’s something I can’t forget from the past. Despite that I’m already moving on from brokenness a long time ago, there’s a “pop-up” from my mind that I still remember my former love. I mean my former girlfriend who had our long distance relationship (LDR) for three long years.

And just last Wednesday, after 642 days of no contact, I didn’t expect that she accepted my friend request on Facebook. Yeah, this was after I tried to reconnect again with her for few times because I wanted to have clarity on what we had broken in 2015 and to have a sincere closure between us. I know it might be wrong to reconnect again to the past, but it’s because I want to have some forgiveness even in my present life thru post-LDR stage. But before our reconnection thru Facebook, I’ll discuss how we built our great barriers to “cut” the communication between two of us. Continue reading