Domination (Part 2)

Episode 197 – Tuesday, November 21st, 2017 (7630)

domination part 2

Last time I discussed about dominance where these made my life happy and wonderful to the highest level. These records and accomplishments that happened in my life before might never be done again in the future. I really, really miss these best memories few years ago where these were present. In this second part, I will discuss the other things that made me and my life so dominant.

Text messaging

For now, no one wants me to communicate thru text message (or even chat on Facebook) because they might be busy in their own works. And most of the times, I have lost my desire to communicate with someone because they might not reply me at all. But back few years ago, text (short messaging service or SMS) communication was so dominant in my life.

Having conversation thru text was started as early as 2002 when our family had our first and only one cellphone that we had. However, we only used for limited time due of limit SMS capacity of the phone (which fit only 50 or less SMS) and unlimited text promos didn’t exist back then. But when I was in college, text communication began to rise up. Continue reading

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Betrayal

Episode 194 – Sunday, November 5th, 2017 (7614)

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It’s already November, and finally I got a new job! Yehey! I had been jobless for 6 long months before, and hopefully this new opportunity will be forever and ever and no more bullying! Hahaha!

But 6 months ago, I felt being a “traitor” because I easily gave up from a job in Cabuyao after working for only one month. I simply blew it because of the situation that I didn’t really appreciate which was bullying. Yeah, I was bullied but in verbal form like teasing. And speaking of teasing, I still remember, when I was a young student in a deaf school, I felt I was betrayed by somebody because of simple teasing. These were my good deaf classmates that some had been with me since preparatory (way back 1994). I thought they had great respect to me because I was a consistent honor student back then (which lasted until 2004 or before I went to the United States for the exchange program). But when we’re in the third or fourth grade, I felt they changed even though they’re still my good deaf classmates for years until 2004. Continue reading

What If… My Best Memories From 2014 Still Exist Today?

Episode 193 – Tuesday, October 31st, 2017 (7609)

2014 still exist in 2017

Finally, after months of boredom, having distractions at home, and of course, being jobless, I already found a new job. Even though it’s too far from home (about 25 miles away) and I will have only one day of rest because of 6-day working week, I really need a job that might be perfect for my career even there’s a quite pressure unlike in my former beloved job in San Pedro. Ayyy… to be honest, I still can’t move on from the best memories and things that I had while I was working in San Pedro for three wonderful years including the year 2014 – my best year ever. (And then… I’m starting to cry… but I’m just kidding.)

Because I will be busy enough for 6 days on my new job which is located in Pasay City, I’m pretty sure that I will have a minimal time to write my new episodes on My Tent Journal in the future (hopefully it will reach its 200th episode before the end of this year). I’m sure I can’t do my writing (or typing, rather) inside the workplace or else I’ll be caught down, hehehe! And because I don’t have internet connections at home (although I can browse internet thru 4G data on my phone but most of the times it has weak signal), I usually rent a computer on a high-speed and more compatible internet café near the entrance of the subdivision, and I hate using a computer in other rentals because of obsolete OS, not compatible browser, and has slow internet. I think I will do for my Journal once per week depending on the stories that I can give from my mind (and my memory, too). Continue reading

Remembering My Saturday Afternoons

Episode 190 – Saturday, October 21st, 2017 (7599)

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In my present situation, I no longer have better things that I once had before. It’s because I don’t have a stable job, love life, a happy and healthy family, freedom, and of course, happiness. Almost every day, I rent a computer in the internet café to apply jobs online. Almost thrice a week, I wash the clothes for our family. And almost every time, I help my father to throw his urinal (he can’t do it alone due of his disability after suffering mild stroke two years ago) and my sister to rise up from her bed due of her illness (she might lose her stable job because of this). And almost every day, I have done nothing but to wait for some miracles in my life and also in my family as well.

Within 7 days of week, Saturday is one of few times that I have something “happy”. It is the time for me to have enough rest from household tasks or my “free time” only for the short time in my present life. Yeah, this is my present time. But 3-5 years ago, Saturday was so special for me especially the times when I had a better job and wonderful love life.

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Episode 189 – Monday, October 16th, 2017 (7594)

It’s already in the middle of October, but as you know, I’m still in the darker times where struggles are present in my life. In the past 6-7 months, I still don’t have any stable job or income at all. Although I have enough saving on the bank (thanks to my backpay from my previous job), I’m afraid that anytime soon it might be gone away because of the expenses that I need such as travel going to the job interview, food for my lunch while job hunting, and renting a computer at the internet café to search job vacancies online. I also decided to hold my monthly healthcare that I had commit to pay since three years ago because I don’t have any income right now as I’m still jobless (this might ruin my future goals, thanks to my former college classmate who encouraged me to join for the financial literacy even though I don’t really have many friends to be on my downline). Continue reading

From Crush to Enemy (?)

Episode 187 – Saturday, September 30th, 2017 (7578)

from crush to enemy

September almost ends, and I’m still jobless (and loveless)! Ayyy… but I’m just changing the topic. Before we’ll flip our calendars into October, this month is somewhat remembered as the “birth of my love life”. Really? I think so, but it has been 20 years since my love life was emerged into my life. Although all of the events about my love life during Deaf School Era (or Pre-2005 era) have been “erased” and no longer in my history books, my love life was started to grow 20 years ago when I had a crush… oh well, I don’t want to discuss this because it has been already “past” (my history has been rewritten). Technically, since 2005 (or Post-2005/Post-Deaf World Era), I had several pretty girls that became my crushes, either in school or in work. However, none of these became my girlfriend at all (except the one who was an unknown stranger that later became my textmate and my first-ever girlfriend). And the worst, some of them had some bad memories in my life which caused them into my “enemies”. What?

To be honest, some of my former crushes in post-2005 era are no longer my friends in the present because of complicated “past” (maybe there’s an episode that I wrote two years ago about regret that I had once considered them as part of my friendship.) It’s either they frustrated me in courtship (basted, I mean) or having bad memories that hurt my feelings. And coincidentally, all of them were born in the month of September or within the zodiac sign of Libra (which occurs between September 23 and October 23)! Oh my! In this episode, I just want to share about my former crushes turning into somewhat “enemies”. Continue reading

25 What Ifs That Might Change My Life Forever

Episode 186 – Wednesday, September 27th, 2017 (7575)

In my current situation, I feel unhappy because of many struggles and problems that I’ve faced right now. Health problems in my family have affected my life at home because of my eldest sister suffering her illness. Distractions are always there especially at home because of my elder brother who has been jobless for three years where his bedroom is “shared” my bedroom thru one door and of my parents. And I have been exhausted in waiting for some miracles in my life because until now I still have no job (for 5-6 months) and no girlfriend (for 27 months) at all. That’s why my life has been so boring right now because of these freaking problems making my happiness ruined.

But there are things that I might be thinking of. These situations might not happen if I supposed to live in a comfortable and happy life and the distractions won’t come. What if… all these things that already happened in my life didn’t happen at all? What if… I might not be the same as what I have been right now? And what if… these good and wonderful things that I had before still exist until now?

Since I have been living in the City of Santa Rosa, Laguna for 25 years (actually just 24 and I’ll explain it later on), I just want to share about 25 what ifs that might change my entire life forever. These might alter my present life in the fullest. Few of these are already discussed in my past episodes in this blog, but I now explain more alternate scenarios that might not be the same as what I have right now. Continue reading

Was 2014 The New 1997 of My New Era?

Episode 181 – Sunday, September 3rd, 2017 (7551)

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The year 2017 might not be another good year for me as last year (2016) because of many bad, tragic and unexpected incidents that happened most especially in my working career, in my finances, in my love life (I’m still single for two long years) and my family as well. Even though there are still four months remaining before the year 2018, it’s not enough to be considered this year as my good year. I’m still within the darker and worse times right now unlike three years ago.

Yeah, three years ago, my life was way, way better and more wonderful because I had lots of blessings and abundance. I had a better, nicer job that there’s a real convenience. I had a lovable girlfriend despite of having long distance relationship. I had a happy and healthy family despite that some misunderstandings. And of course, I had a great commitment with God as I continued to attend and to serve at The Feast. These best things made me and my life so wonderful and colorful. But these were already gone three years ago (except for my attendance and my service at The Feast), I totally miss the year with reminiscence to remember my past around few years ago particularly the year 2014. Continue reading

Jobless But Grateful (That Was Four Years Ago)

Episode 180 – Friday, September 1st, 2017 (7549)

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Being jobless is one of the bad things happened in my life right now. It has been 4-5 months that I’m out of job. While I’m still searching for a new one, I spend my money to print a bunch of my resumes from the computer/internet shop that I rent and travel some places for the job interview and exam in which eventually I’m not qualified. And while I’m waiting for a job invitation on my phone, I’m so bored staying at home with lots of distractions especially none of my family members does have enough stable job or any source of income. That’s why I’m now in the darker times because of these struggles.

Four year ago, I was also jobless back then, but… it was quite different what I have right now. Continue reading

Is August An Unlucky Month For Me?

Episode 179 – Tuesday, August 29th, 2017 (7546)

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August is almost done, and the “Ber” months will be coming within few days. But before flipping our calendars into another new month, this August is not so good for me. Despite that this is my birth month (born on August 6th), it seems somewhat not so wonderful because of bad happenings occurred within this month.

While I’m still jobless for few months, I feel so desperate and bothered at home because of the distractions. My eldest sister is still ill where she can’t rise from her bed and stand up on her own. That’s why she (almost) always calls me to help her to stand up. Even though she still walks, she’s unable to work at her job due of her illness (by the way, she was the only one who had stable job until she became ill). Continue reading