Episode 190 – Saturday, October 21st, 2017 (7599)
In my present situation, I no longer have better things that I once had before. It’s because I don’t have a stable job, love life, a happy and healthy family, freedom, and of course, happiness. Almost every day, I rent a computer in the internet café to apply jobs online. Almost thrice a week, I wash the clothes for our family. And almost every time, I help my father to throw his urinal (he can’t do it alone due of his disability after suffering mild stroke two years ago) and my sister to rise up from her bed due of her illness (she might lose her stable job because of this). And almost every day, I have done nothing but to wait for some miracles in my life and also in my family as well.
Within 7 days of week, Saturday is one of few times that I have something “happy”. It is the time for me to have enough rest from household tasks or my “free time” only for the short time in my present life. Yeah, this is my present time. But 3-5 years ago, Saturday was so special for me especially the times when I had a better job and wonderful love life.
Episode 188 – Wednesday, October 4th, 2017 (7582)
I still remember when I was a young student at the Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD) many teachers and fellow students who were hard to spell my first name (by the way, my real name is just weird but unique). They couldn’t write my name because they said it was weird or foreign-like. They misspelled my name mostly. And also they couldn’t even pronounce it. I don’t understand why my family gave me a “weird” name when I was born. Why not usual names like John or Joseph or Matthew or… any Biblical names or whatsoever? Arghhh… But that’s already my real first name that I’ve used in my entire life. Tent Tertional is just my pen name or screen name, and I’m still using this for most of my writings, including this blog, for more than 20 years. Continue reading
Episode 187 – Saturday, September 30th, 2017 (7578)
September almost ends, and I’m still jobless (and loveless)! Ayyy… but I’m just changing the topic. Before we’ll flip our calendars into October, this month is somewhat remembered as the “birth of my love life”. Really? I think so, but it has been 20 years since my love life was emerged into my life. Although all of the events about my love life during Deaf School Era (or Pre-2005 era) have been “erased” and no longer in my history books, my love life was started to grow 20 years ago when I had a crush… oh well, I don’t want to discuss this because it has been already “past” (my history has been rewritten). Technically, since 2005 (or Post-2005/Post-Deaf World Era), I had several pretty girls that became my crushes, either in school or in work. However, none of these became my girlfriend at all (except the one who was an unknown stranger that later became my textmate and my first-ever girlfriend). And the worst, some of them had some bad memories in my life which caused them into my “enemies”. What?
To be honest, some of my former crushes in post-2005 era are no longer my friends in the present because of complicated “past” (maybe there’s an episode that I wrote two years ago about regret that I had once considered them as part of my friendship.) It’s either they frustrated me in courtship (basted, I mean) or having bad memories that hurt my feelings. And coincidentally, all of them were born in the month of September or within the zodiac sign of Libra (which occurs between September 23 and October 23)! Oh my! In this episode, I just want to share about my former crushes turning into somewhat “enemies”. Continue reading
Episode 186 – Wednesday, September 27th, 2017 (7575)
In my current situation, I feel unhappy because of many struggles and problems that I’ve faced right now. Health problems in my family have affected my life at home because of my eldest sister suffering her illness. Distractions are always there especially at home because of my elder brother who has been jobless for three years where his bedroom is “shared” my bedroom thru one door and of my parents. And I have been exhausted in waiting for some miracles in my life because until now I still have no job (for 5-6 months) and no girlfriend (for 27 months) at all. That’s why my life has been so boring right now because of these freaking problems making my happiness ruined.
But there are things that I might be thinking of. These situations might not happen if I supposed to live in a comfortable and happy life and the distractions won’t come. What if… all these things that already happened in my life didn’t happen at all? What if… I might not be the same as what I have been right now? And what if… these good and wonderful things that I had before still exist until now?
Since I have been living in the City of Santa Rosa, Laguna for 25 years (actually just 24 and I’ll explain it later on), I just want to share about 25 what ifs that might change my entire life forever. These might alter my present life in the fullest. Few of these are already discussed in my past episodes in this blog, but I now explain more alternate scenarios that might not be the same as what I have right now. Continue reading
Episode 181 – Sunday, September 3rd, 2017 (7551)
The year 2017 might not be another good year for me as last year (2016) because of many bad, tragic and unexpected incidents that happened most especially in my working career, in my finances, in my love life (I’m still single for two long years) and my family as well. Even though there are still four months remaining before the year 2018, it’s not enough to be considered this year as my good year. I’m still within the darker and worse times right now unlike three years ago.
Yeah, three years ago, my life was way, way better and more wonderful because I had lots of blessings and abundance. I had a better, nicer job that there’s a real convenience. I had a lovable girlfriend despite of having long distance relationship. I had a happy and healthy family despite that some misunderstandings. And of course, I had a great commitment with God as I continued to attend and to serve at The Feast. These best things made me and my life so wonderful and colorful. But these were already gone three years ago (except for my attendance and my service at The Feast), I totally miss the year with reminiscence to remember my past around few years ago particularly the year 2014. Continue reading
Episode 178 – Sunday, August 20, 2017 (7537)
All About Tent was my premier journal during my college life from 2007 to 2009.
My TENT Journal is a personal blog that is published thru internet where I share about my everyday life and its surroundings that affect my life. That’s what I am doing right now, writing a story for one whole episode, posting to my blog, and then publish and share to everybody who wants to read my journal. I started the idea two years ago to publish my articles about my life thru the internet. And in the past two years, I can’t imagine I have published more than 175 episodes! It has been two years of thinking, writing (or rather typing on my beloved laptop), and publishing my blog every single week or so.
But it’s hard to imagine that my Journal is NOT my first “love” to write articles. Even though it’s my first time to write and to publish my stories thru internet, it’s just a successor of my old commentary journal when I was in college. Continue reading
Episode 177 – Wednesday, August 16th, 2017 (7533)
Last Sunday, I attended The Feast in SM City Santa Rosa to listen a new series called Taboo where it was discussed about abuse. There’s one type of abuse that somewhat I was so related, and that was a verbal and emotional abuse where somebody tells a victim any inappropriate words as an act of bullying. And yes, indeed, I was once a victim of this type of abuse.
Bullying is one of the bad things that I really hate. Even since I was a young kid, I was bullied, ironically, by my eldest siblings most especially my elder brother. Because I’m the youngest among them (with a huge age gap), they underestimated me as a “servant” (yung laging inuutusan). Sometimes, they “abused” me verbally and emotionally, so that I felt cried with anger after the confrontation. Even I already grew up, they still mistreated me like my elder brother who was teasing me as he called my name sounding like a goat. But well, that was my past. Right now, because I’m already in adulthood stage, they no longer mistreat me so badly. Continue reading
Episode 175 – Thursday, August 10th, 2017 (7527)
Right now, my life is somewhat dark and dull, and it’s even darker than what I had last year where distractions and disasters came, not only emotionally (love), but financially. It’s because I’ve been facing so many struggles in my life and also in my family as well. While I’m still jobless for five long months (officially, not included my ill-fated job stint in Cabuyao) and loveless (no girlfriend) for two months, there are things and unexpected situations that came and distracted even worse. My elder brother has been jobless for three years, and my privacy and personal time in my “own” bedroom has been vanished because of him (his bedroom is connected to mine thru one entrance door). My father has been recovered from mild stroke two years ago, and he barely stands and walks because of his condition. However, there are some times that I get annoyed because of his orders that he can’t do especially throwing his urinal (he can’t go to the bathroom because he can’t walk further). My mother has also been suffered from some illness such as high blood pressure. And lately, my eldest sister has been suffered from an illness that weakens her body, and she barely stands and walks straight due of her condition. As the breadwinner of our family (she’s the only one who has stable job among us), she was hospitalized for almost one week, and the worst, she has been out of work for weeks because of her illness. Continue reading
Episode 171 – Monday, July 24th, 2017 (7510)
The month of July is almost over, but I’m still in the intervening times because I’m still jobless for months. And the worst scenario that I’ve faced right now is the distractions at home where I have experienced, not only boredom, also illness as well. Earlier this month, my eldest sister, who is the only one that has stable job, was hospitalized due of her illness. After releasing from the hospital, she’s still not okay at all. But another unexpected distraction came at home. The “virus” spread over our home starting with my jobless elder brother who became ill. He has suffered hard cough and fever, and almost every member of our family became ill. Because his bedroom is connected to my “own” bedroom thru the only one door, I also became ill with heavy dry cough and flu. Even though I’m searching for the new job and invited for job interview, I’m not feeling comfortable because I’m still sick. The “toxic” environment at home has been the worst while I’m out of work.
Anyway, despite of being sick, I’m able to look for my better job because I’m out of work for few months, and I desperately need to have a stable job because if ever I don’t have this, how will I survive most especially for my future life? And this includes my love life that until now I’m still single. My goodness! Continue reading
Episode 170 – Monday, July 17th, 2017 (7503)
It has been 12 years since my life was changed from so-called “Deaf World” to the ordinary world where I’ve been now belonged. Yeah, for those who don’t know about my past life, I was from an old world where there were deaf people who became my long time friends. It was because I studied in a deaf institution particularly Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD) where I was a “deaf” student for many years. In August 2004, when I was in fourth year (senior) high school, I left PSD to go to the United States for the exchange program where I studied at Alabama School for the Deaf (ASD) with lots of most memorable moments. However, when I came back home after almost a year in the U.S., my school life was shifted, once again, from being “deaf” to an ordinary student together with non-deaf classmates at International Montessori School (IMS), a non-deaf school located just few meters away from my home. This move led the end of my life in the “Deaf World” as I never came back at PSD to resume my fourth year high school (my graduation at ASD was not accredited due of exchange program).
The main reason why I was transferred to IMS from PSD was my avoidance from the PSD Batch of 2006 led by my “deaf mortal enemy”, just called her “Nita”. After involving a controversy back in 2004, she became my adversary because of her “favoritism” at school (thanks to the teachers who were once my allies and became bandwagons after favoring her) and slapping me one time during my class because of her anger. She was chubby, intelligent, and consistent first honor in her batch (of 2006). She had many “allies” who were her classmates in section one. Even after the incident and when I was in the U.S., I was still mad at her because of what she did to me that almost ruined my reputation. That’s why it was a good move for me to be transferred from PSD to continue my high school studies at IMS with new classmates who were non-deaf. Continue reading