Loss of Appetite

Episode 164 – Friday, June 23rd, 2017 (7479)

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In the past several weeks since I lost my job, my life became boring once again. I have no work, no girlfriend, encountered distractions at home, and every time when I’m going around after my job application, I just walk around the mall alone, unaccompanied, and lonely. And even I have my cellphone that I’ve done anything to get rid my boredom, still I feel so bored because nobody text or chat me on my phone. I feel there’s something missing in my life right now.

Since post-LDR era which it has been now two years already, my life is now so dull with mediocrity. I’m always thinking about my past life where it was way, way back better than what I have right now. I really miss the moment. But since I became single and loveless, I began to lose my appetite to do for my happiness. My happy days were gone. Continue reading

Feast SMSR Summer Outing

Episode 155 – Sunday, May 28th, 2017 (7453)

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Before the summer season ends (although it’s almost rainy season), there was a summer outing for the servants of Feast SM Sta. Rosa (SMSR), led by Bro. Dreus Cosio. It was announced during the second week of May and posted on Facebook. When I read about this, I was so excited about it because, for the rarest time, there would be summer gathering from Feast SMSR (I don’t know if this would be the first time or there were summer outings in the past). For me, this was my first time since last year to have a summer gathering with my friends, and it was also the first from a non-corporate organization (a company where I worked or affiliated). Also, since my college graduation back in 2010, it was my only fifth time to join a swimming outing with them after 2010 – with my former college classmates, 2012 – with my work colleagues from Alabang, 2014 – with my friends from HOT Team, and 2016 – with my officemates from San Pedro. (Note: except for last year, all of these happened in overnight swimming although in 2014 we stayed in a hotel overnight before some of us swam on the next morning.) I know most of my former college classmates, friends and former work colleagues have been summer outing every year provided by some companies where they’ve worked there. But for me, I never have experienced any summer outing provided by a company throughout my career life (in 2016, I and my work colleagues had our “company” summer outing, but our company didn’t provide the outing because it was just only small, employed only four people, including myself). Continue reading

The Few, The Merrier

Episode 153 – Friday, May 19th, 2017 (7444)

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We’ve seen many vehicles around the roads that make heavy traffic. We’ve seen many people in the metro which make us so crowded (overpopulated, I mean). We’ve spent many hours to work hard at the office or even at home. But oddly, we don’t have a lot of money to save and to spend. Here in my beloved country, there are only few millionaires, and there are some in the middle class (including me and my family even though sometimes we’re struggled for finances), but sadly most Filipinos are poor. Well, anyways, I’m not talking about money because I’m not encouraging any financial teachings or networking to become rich. This episode is all about not so many things that I want to share but is about the few. Yeah, I’m not sharing a lot of stories about my current life, but yet I just want this simpler. Continue reading

My Collections

Episode 150 – Wednesday, May 3rd, 2017 (7428)

I don’t imagine that my journal (blog) has already been published 150 episodes in the past 22 months. Wow! Time is so fast since it was first published in June 2015 where I was fresh from being heartbroken. Awww… forget it. I have already written 150 episodes about stories in my current situation, happenings, data facts, and throwback from my archives. That’s another milestone for my blog, and I feel I can do to write up to 200th episode before the year 2017 ends. I hope so, but I’m now sad because I became jobless again after my momentary job stint in Cabuyao due of pressure and stress (thanks to my mother who bothered me especially about finances that my salary was not enough to support her needs in our family).

Anyways, don’t you mind that my own office (called My Tent Office) inside my bedroom where I’m now writing (or typing rather) this episode on my own laptop that is already five years old and still working. This laptop is the one of many things that I keep in my own office where there are lots of old notebooks, books and some other stuff that I collected. This may be looked some messy place, but these are my things that I still keep throughout my life. It’s funny that I collect memorabilia, either these were bought or given from my friends, although some are just bizarre that are supposed to be thrown into garbage bin. But I still keep these because they are my memories considering as history. Well, I’ll share to you something in this episode about my collections that I still keep in my own office. Some are just bizarre, but most of them are important and historical with good memories throughout my life. I only choose five things that I’ve collected since when I was growing up from a young kid, into a teenager, until I became a young gentleman. Continue reading

The Cycle: Best-Bad-Good-Worst

Episode 149 – Wednesday, April 26th, 2017 (7421)

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Good day! Right now, I have to remember my past memories where there were lots of the best and most memorable moments happened to make me and my life wonderful and happy. Last episode, I wrote about my three best eras in the past 20 years in my life, and I really missed the best moments that I had in happiness, freedom, and in love life. But in exchange, my best memories turned out into bad incidents where distractions came unexpectedly into my life. Although I needed to move on from the best, my life has been just a mediocre with some good (not the best) memories; however, I didn’t enjoy because of one worst case scenario which almost ruined my life. But then suddenly, my worst incidents turned into the best, and the routine has been on and on. Continue reading

My Three Best Eras in 20 Years

Episode 148 – Thursday, April 20th, 2017 (7415)

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In the past 20 years, there were many good things happened throughout my life. These made me and my life into happiness, having freedom, and love. There were several good and some memorable moments happened within the last 20 years from 1997 to 2016, but I analyzed the years that I had where there were many best and most memorable things happened during their stretch.

I really found out that there were only three periods or eras in three different decades which were the best and the most memorable in my entire life. In late 1990s, I had my dominance and having “superpower” mostly in my school life. In mid-2000s, my life was so wonderful because of staying abroad for a year. And in 2010s decade, I had a happy and colorful love life despite of having long distance. Well, these were considered as my best eras in the past 20 years. And in this episode and because it’s throwback Thursday, I will discuss these three most memorable eras/periods in my life. Continue reading

Kerygma Lenten Recollection 2017: Follow

Episode 146 – Sunday, April 16th, 2017 (7411)

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(Photo courtesy from Kerygma Lenten Recollection Facebook page)

Good day! It’s Easter Sunday – the resurrection of our Savior, Jesus Christ, who died on the cross. And throughout last week, the Holy Week, all of my friends from Feast SM Santa Rosa (SMSR), Technopark Hotel, and Pacita gathered for three-day recollection. It’s the Kerygma Lenten Recollection 2017, and this year’s theme was Follow, which somewhat identified on a social networking site, Twitter, with birds flying over, I think. This was my fifth consecutive year to attend KLR this year since I first attended in 2013 – its initial year.

KLR is an annual Holy Week special of the Feast/Light of Jesus Family. When I, together with some of my former college classmates, saw this for the first time, I had no idea about this event, but I got curiosity on this discovery which was the way for me to attend (and to serve) The Feast regularly in which I’ve been doing for almost four years. Since then, I’ve been a part of this Holy Week event as an attendee and also a servant (for Media Ministry) which was my third time to do for this year’s KLR after 2014: Adik (Christ Is Enough) and 2015: Lost (last year, I didn’t serve because of feeling alone after being heartbroken despite of attending for two days without any companion). And it was also my second year to attend in post-LDR (long distance relationship) era. Continue reading

(In)Consistent

Episode 141 – Friday, March 24th, 2017 (7388)

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Beginning this year, I started to publish my new episodes on my blog every Tuesday and Thursday, and I did these for 10 weeks in a row. But it was until when I became jobless in my previous job. Right after I published a one Thursday episode, I immediately published my story about losing my job which was published on Friday, March 10, a day after the shocking announcement of the company where I had worked for three long years that we’re now dissolved. Because I don’t have internet connection at home, my new episodes that are scheduled to be published every Tuesday and Thursday on my blog are affected. My consistency has been broken. Continue reading

Acquaintance

Episode 137 – Thursday, March 9th, 2017 (7373)

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Meeting new people means the beginning of new friendship. Yeah, every stranger meets another stranger to become new friends either accidental or intentional. It is called acquaintance where strange people are getting to know each other personally but who has not yet become close friends on the first time. This is a person that he/she doesn’t know too much but can identify them. This was what I had encountered last February 25 when I attended Love Life Retreat with other single (and pretend to be “single”) people mingled to become my batch mates (Batch 4) as well as my new friends. As of now, most of them have already connections with me just days after our retreat where we have communicated thru text or group chat messages to have our bonding times especially attending at the Feast. This has been the beginning of my new friendship with them since the retreat. Continue reading

Love Life Retreat

Episode 135 – Thursday, March 2nd, 2017 (7366)

I was with other 31 participants of Batch 4 of Love Life Retreat (Photo courtesy from Abegail Maldo)

I was with other 31 participants of Batch 4 of Love Life Retreat (Photo courtesy from Abegail Maldo)

Last weekend, I was so blessed on the overnight event that I involved. For the first time, I finally joined Love Life Retreat of Singles Ministry from Feast SM Santa Rosa (SMSR) where there were lots of single people to have acquaintance and to share our experiences about our love lives – relationship with family, friends, and someone that we love (current girlfriends/boyfriends or exs). It was a great experience for me to join this event where I received more blessings, and God’s love and healing, empowered my personal, social, and spiritual growth, and interacted with single people to become my new friends.  This was also the way for me to have forgiveness and to get closer to our Lord Jesus Christ. This may be probably the most memorable Feast event that I ever attended since I started to attend The Feast in 2013.

Before my great and happy experience happened last weekend, I just shared how I did my good decision to join the retreat after months of being convinced and thinking deeply and critically. (I just made my story into summarization or recap about last weekend’s retreat.) Continue reading