Episode 220 – Wednesday, March 21st, 2018 (7750)

Until now, I’m still (and desperately) looking for the “right one” that will love me truly as my future partner forever. However, there are some distractions that I can’t be able to find someone because of the instances that she’s not the right one for me. Someone tells me that I can’t be able to have a formal courtship to some single ladies out there because I’m “weak”, shy or whatever they’re telling me that I don’t really like to hear their reactions or suggestions which makes me so distracting and disappoint. While I’m writing (or typing) on my laptop, I don’t realize that I’ve been still single for the last 1,000 days! Woah! I can’t believe that I have still no girlfriend for thousand days (about almost 33 months or 2.75 years). That’s really a milestone for me as a single young man.

Reaching a milestone makes me happy but sad because I’m still single, having no girlfriend or love life until now. In this episode, I’m now sharing my past experiences happened within 1,000 days after the break of long distance relationship (LDR) and the beginning of Post-LDR Era. I just made my timeline from Day 1 of becoming single and no love relationship at all until this day. Continue reading “#1000Days”


Am I Anti-Social?

Episode 209 – Sunday, January 21st, 2018 (7691)

Throughout last weekend, I felt some loneliness because I didn’t talk with somebody else either personal (especially at work) or thru medium like phone via text (it’s already almost dead) and Facebook chat. After my “special friend” came to restore my happiness when we began to have our chat conversation, in later days, we’re starting to decline our time to chat each other (thanks to some signal/network problems and too much busy at work). But the worst is the occurrence where no one replies me at all in which causes me into sadness (with some anger because it feels like they “ignore” me or walang pumapansin). For most of the times, I just deactivated my Facebook account (but later I restored it back) for some reason as I knew they might forget me at all. Kalimutan na nila ako, wag na sila babalik sa buhay ko ah dahil lang sa “no reply”! Sorry for being harsh, but it’s true. That’s a sad reality in my life right now, and this is the reason why I’m always ALONE in my life right now. Walang kausap, walang kasama, palaging mag-isa sa lahat! Gosh! It’s New Year, but did my friends reply me? Hmmm… That’s very alarming!

Anyways, I feel I’m just “anti-social” person because, as you know, I’m introvert where I don’t want to join a group of friends bonding together. I know I will be “out of place” (OP) if I’ll join with them who are talking for themselves rather than talking with me. That’s why, for most of the times, I’ve never joined any group of friends or tropa, particularly from the Feast, a Light Group (LG) to share their experiences and problems. But I have asked you something, am I really an anti-social person? It’s because I feel I’m just alone in my life (ever since I became single or Post-LDR Era). Being alone is the loneliest part in my life right now. Even though I have a “special friend” who takes me thru chat with some care, it might not be enough to fulfill my happiness and to get rid my boredom and stress from work (thanks to my skeptic boss) and at home.

I have already written this topic almost two years ago about being anti-social on me. But this time, I will explain why I don’t have a social life in my (almost) entire life. Continue reading “Am I Anti-Social?”

My Life 5-10-15-20-25 Years Ago (for 1st Half of 2018)

Episode 208 – Wednesday, January 17th, 2018 (7687)

my life 5-25 years ago

It has been days after the year 2018 started. And I’m not pretty sure if it will be a great year for me because I still have problems that carried over from last year (or even 2016 or after June 2015 – the end of my (long distance) love life). Although my happiness has been somewhat restored thanks to my “special friend” who always contacts me thru Facebook messenger, there are still struggles especially in my family at home. As you know, I have no privacy at my Tent Office which will turn 20 years old (I’ll discuss this in July 2018) and lots of distraction at home where there’s not really enough to have a free time of my own. Utos pa more! Hehehe!

And speaking of 2018, I can’t believe that it has been 10 years ago, in 2008, when I started this series where I wrote the past experiences in my life in 5, 10, and 15 years ago. I was still in college back then, and my life was somewhat better even though my father was too pessimistic back then at home. And because the year 2018 has been fresh, I just want to share the past experiences and happenings around my life within 5-year interval.

Like most of my past episodes of this series (in early January and July), I had written it as “5-10-15-20” where I described my life in the past 5, 10, 15, and 20 years ago. But this time, I’m going to add the events that occurred in my life 25 years ago (which was 1993, and most of you hadn’t been born yet). Well, before going back in my “time machine”, I will share my present life this 2018: Continue reading “My Life 5-10-15-20-25 Years Ago (for 1st Half of 2018)”

My 2017 Yearend Review: The Best and The Worst

Episode 205 – Sunday, December 31st, 2017 (7670)

Best vs Worst 2017

It has been already the final day of 2017! How time flies! I have experienced the happiness, the struggles, and the unexpected surprises happened from Day 1 until the last day of 2017.It’s like there were ups and downs that I ever had in my life throughout 2017, and I have overcome these in the past 365 days of this year.

Oh well, 2017 might be better compared to 2016, but it’s not enough to be considered as my best year (like what I had in 2014) because of the struggles that I had especially in the middle of the year. Being jobless, sickness and distractions at home, and lack of communication either personal or thru social media were the worst things happened in 2017. However, happiness and gratitude have been my best things that I ever have (especially lately in December).

As my yearender special for this coming New Year, I just want to share my best and my worst happenings in the year 2017: Continue reading “My 2017 Yearend Review: The Best and The Worst”

My 2017 Yearend Review: My Family

Episode 204 – Wednesday, December 27th, 2017 (7666)


Last episode, I discussed about my life at the Feast in the past 12 months of 2017.

But wait, there’s more! As a part of my 2017 yearend review just before the New Year, I’m now talking about my life experience with my family at home where there are lots of distractions, toxic environment, and illness that I ever had in the past 12 months of 2017. I just made some short details about this because these have been always mentioned in my other episodes within the year. Continue reading “My 2017 Yearend Review: My Family”

What If… I’m 10 Years Younger in My Present Life?

Episode 195 – Tuesday, November 14th, 2017 (7623)


It has been a long, long weekend for me and others who work in the Metro because of ASEAN summit. But it might be boring for me because of the distractions at home. And right now, I’m not feeling well because of changing weather (it was stormy just last Thursday night but then suddenly it became sunny in the next day) and working conditions at my new job in Pasay where there’s too much cold inside the workplace while it’s so hot outside the building.

In my current age, I think I really need to set up my own life because I’m already old enough to build for my adulthood. Within early 30s, I suppose to be married with someone and having children for one happy family. However, because I have many financial and family problems, I’m still stuck living with my parents who are within 70s and my elder siblings whom one of them, my elder brother, is 15 years older than me (making a huge age gap between us). My only relative who has the closest age differential is my niece at her age of 23 (turning 24 this December). But others… well they’re not included in the millennial generation (because they’re more than 40 in their age). Continue reading “What If… I’m 10 Years Younger in My Present Life?”

What If… My Best Memories From 2014 Still Exist Today?

Episode 193 – Tuesday, October 31st, 2017 (7609)

2014 still exist in 2017

Finally, after months of boredom, having distractions at home, and of course, being jobless, I already found a new job. Even though it’s too far from home (about 25 miles away) and I will have only one day of rest because of 6-day working week, I really need a job that might be perfect for my career even there’s a quite pressure unlike in my former beloved job in San Pedro. Ayyy… to be honest, I still can’t move on from the best memories and things that I had while I was working in San Pedro for three wonderful years including the year 2014 – my best year ever. (And then… I’m starting to cry… but I’m just kidding.)

Because I will be busy enough for 6 days on my new job which is located in Pasay City, I’m pretty sure that I will have a minimal time to write my new episodes on My Tent Journal in the future (hopefully it will reach its 200th episode before the end of this year). I’m sure I can’t do my writing (or typing, rather) inside the workplace or else I’ll be caught down, hehehe! And because I don’t have internet connections at home (although I can browse internet thru 4G data on my phone but most of the times it has weak signal), I usually rent a computer on a high-speed and more compatible internet café near the entrance of the subdivision, and I hate using a computer in other rentals because of obsolete OS, not compatible browser, and has slow internet. I think I will do for my Journal once per week depending on the stories that I can give from my mind (and my memory, too). Continue reading “What If… My Best Memories From 2014 Still Exist Today?”