Episode 232 – Sunday, July 15th, 2018 (7866)
It’s already the halfway of 2018. But during the first half of that year, many struggles had already happened throughout my life including the tragic situation in my family last May (you know what I mean). Last January, at the start of the year, I wrote an episode that described the events happened in my life in the past 5, 10, 15, 20, and 25 years ago. If this 2018 may be considered as a tragic year for me even though it has been in the middle, 2013 was my happier year because of having a love life. 2008 and 2003 were my school years where the former was one of my good years because I happily accompanied with my pretty classmate while the latter was somewhat a bad year because of controversies. And finally, 1998 and 1993 were the years where I was so young to explore many things to happen.
Right now, I’m going back in time to explore the past memories that I had in the 5, 10, 15, 20, and 25 years. But before that, I will share my present life this July 2018. Continue reading “My Life 5-10-15-20-25 Years Ago (for 2nd Half of 2018)”
Episode 230 – Sunday, June 24th, 2018 (7845)
Some Hollywood movies have divided into three parts or sequels which are called trilogy – a set of three works related in theme. My favorite trilogy movie that I ever watched was the Back To The Future series. Released in 1985, 1989, and 1990, I only watched these three parts of that movie for the first time when I was in the United States back in 2005. And speaking though, back then during my high school days, I had studied three different schools – PSD, ASD (both are deaf schools) and IMS (a non-deaf school) in a span of only one year from July 2004 to July 2005. Also, I had attended fourth year high school thrice and had participated in the Junior-Senior (JS) Prom thrice in these three different schools. I think I had a “trilogy” in my school life back then.
Last June 10, the Feast SM Santa Rosa celebrated its third anniversary (after relocating from Central Mall Biñan), and the theme of that celebration was called “Gra3tude”. Unfortunately, I didn’t attend the special event of the Feast SMSR due of grief from the death of my eldest sister (thus, I haven’t attended Feast since May 6). But today, I really don’t mind that it has been three years since My Tent Journal was launched. Yeah, three years had so many incidents happened in my life including the break-up of my long distance relationship (LDR) with my textmate. Obviously, it has been also three years when I became loveless and single after having a LDR which also lasted three years.
From publishing my first ever episode of my journal (blog) and eventually the break-up until the darkest times, I just want to share my experiences in the past three years. Within three years, my era has been called the Post-LDR Era with a series of heartbroken and loveless moments, boredom, slight happiness, and grief. In that era, I divide it into three different periods that I ever encountered during the three-year span.
Continue reading “Trilogy: 3 Different Periods in Post-LDR Era”
Episode 228 – Wednesday, June 13th, 2018 (7834)
It has been a long, long time that I haven’t written my blog (I think it has been weeks or almost a month). It was because of over fatigue from my former work (thank God I’m no longer working there) and one big tragedy in my family. The whole month of May was really considered for me as the worst and the darkest moment, not only in my career life, but also in my family as well.
Entering that month, I felt so tired from work because of frequent overtimes in the printing company in Pasay due of large volume of jobs from the freaking clients that mostly were annual reports (a sort of). I had an overnight work once where I went home in the early morning of first day of May (I had stayed in an affordable hotel before going home with some sleepless mode). But while I was working too long, I didn’t notice that my eldest sister became weaker and couldn’t stand on her own due of her illness. I felt so bad after I got mad on her when she asked me to help her standing on her chair. I didn’t give my apology to her, but I just stayed inside my bedroom to get some rest despite of sizzling heat at home (it was summer, and our house has poor ventilation). However, I had no idea that it was the last time that she could stand on her feet at home. Continue reading “Tragedy and Grief”
Episode 223 – Tuesday, April 10th, 2018 (7770)
In most families, there are children where they’re bonding each other in one big family. They are called siblings as they call themselves as brothers or sisters because they’re born in the same parents. Some only have two siblings while others have minimum number of 3, but some have a bigger one (more than 10, just like a complete line-up of a basketball team). Some few others are twins or even triplets, quadruplets, or quintuplets. Sometimes they call themselves as “best friend” because they’re living together in one home. However, there are some that they are only child (solo flight). They might be happy because they’re solo in their own things, but some don’t because they’re alone without having a brother or a sister playing and bonding each other.
Oh well, I’m now discussing in this episode about siblings. Continue reading “Siblings”
Episode 220 – Wednesday, March 21st, 2018 (7750)
Until now, I’m still (and desperately) looking for the “right one” that will love me truly as my future partner forever. However, there are some distractions that I can’t be able to find someone because of the instances that she’s not the right one for me. Someone tells me that I can’t be able to have a formal courtship to some single ladies out there because I’m “weak”, shy or whatever they’re telling me that I don’t really like to hear their reactions or suggestions which makes me so distracting and disappoint. While I’m writing (or typing) on my laptop, I don’t realize that I’ve been still single for the last 1,000 days! Woah! I can’t believe that I have still no girlfriend for thousand days (about almost 33 months or 2.75 years). That’s really a milestone for me as a single young man.
Reaching a milestone makes me happy but sad because I’m still single, having no girlfriend or love life until now. In this episode, I’m now sharing my past experiences happened within 1,000 days after the break of long distance relationship (LDR) and the beginning of Post-LDR Era. I just made my timeline from Day 1 of becoming single and no love relationship at all until this day. Continue reading “#1000Days”
Episode 209 – Sunday, January 21st, 2018 (7691)
Throughout last weekend, I felt some loneliness because I didn’t talk with somebody else either personal (especially at work) or thru medium like phone via text (it’s already almost dead) and Facebook chat. After my “special friend” came to restore my happiness when we began to have our chat conversation, in later days, we’re starting to decline our time to chat each other (thanks to some signal/network problems and too much busy at work). But the worst is the occurrence where no one replies me at all in which causes me into sadness (with some anger because it feels like they “ignore” me or walang pumapansin). For most of the times, I just deactivated my Facebook account (but later I restored it back) for some reason as I knew they might forget me at all. Kalimutan na nila ako, wag na sila babalik sa buhay ko ah dahil lang sa “no reply”! Sorry for being harsh, but it’s true. That’s a sad reality in my life right now, and this is the reason why I’m always ALONE in my life right now. Walang kausap, walang kasama, palaging mag-isa sa lahat! Gosh! It’s New Year, but did my friends reply me? Hmmm… That’s very alarming!
Anyways, I feel I’m just “anti-social” person because, as you know, I’m introvert where I don’t want to join a group of friends bonding together. I know I will be “out of place” (OP) if I’ll join with them who are talking for themselves rather than talking with me. That’s why, for most of the times, I’ve never joined any group of friends or tropa, particularly from the Feast, a Light Group (LG) to share their experiences and problems. But I have asked you something, am I really an anti-social person? It’s because I feel I’m just alone in my life (ever since I became single or Post-LDR Era). Being alone is the loneliest part in my life right now. Even though I have a “special friend” who takes me thru chat with some care, it might not be enough to fulfill my happiness and to get rid my boredom and stress from work (thanks to my skeptic boss) and at home.
I have already written this topic almost two years ago about being anti-social on me. But this time, I will explain why I don’t have a social life in my (almost) entire life. Continue reading “Am I Anti-Social?”
Episode 208 – Wednesday, January 17th, 2018 (7687)
It has been days after the year 2018 started. And I’m not pretty sure if it will be a great year for me because I still have problems that carried over from last year (or even 2016 or after June 2015 – the end of my (long distance) love life). Although my happiness has been somewhat restored thanks to my “special friend” who always contacts me thru Facebook messenger, there are still struggles especially in my family at home. As you know, I have no privacy at my Tent Office which will turn 20 years old (I’ll discuss this in July 2018) and lots of distraction at home where there’s not really enough to have a free time of my own. Utos pa more! Hehehe!
And speaking of 2018, I can’t believe that it has been 10 years ago, in 2008, when I started this series where I wrote the past experiences in my life in 5, 10, and 15 years ago. I was still in college back then, and my life was somewhat better even though my father was too pessimistic back then at home. And because the year 2018 has been fresh, I just want to share the past experiences and happenings around my life within 5-year interval.
Like most of my past episodes of this series (in early January and July), I had written it as “5-10-15-20” where I described my life in the past 5, 10, 15, and 20 years ago. But this time, I’m going to add the events that occurred in my life 25 years ago (which was 1993, and most of you hadn’t been born yet). Well, before going back in my “time machine”, I will share my present life this 2018: Continue reading “My Life 5-10-15-20-25 Years Ago (for 1st Half of 2018)”