Episode 185 – Sunday, September 24th, 2017 (7572)
While I’m still jobless (and loveless, as well), I’m so bored when I’m staying at home with lots of distractions and, sometimes, negativity. My usual activities at home while I’m still looking for a new job are washing the clothes in the morning (twice or thrice per week), washing the dishes (mostly after breakfast and lunch), cleaning the living room (probably weekly or within two weeks), and never ending house tasks (panay utos nang utos, I mean) ordered by my father and my eldest sister who both have their illness (they can’t do or stand on their own). And while I’m in idle times, I just open my laptop to write (or to type rather) my latest and throwback stories for my blog. Aside of eating three important meals every day, I just do watching TV with my family but not at all.
Yeah, I like to watch TV either with my family or alone in one bedroom but nowadays I feel I’m now losing my desire to watch TV because the programs and live shows broadcasted from the Philippine TV are quite boring. Sorry, to be honest, I’m no longer interested to watch TV shows from the Philippines anymore except for sporting events such as PBA or Gilas Pilipinas tournaments. It’s because of non-sense programs (and even commercials) especially in live news programs where they always deliver negative issues in our beloved country – dirty politics (especially those who are Dutertards or Yellowtards), crimes, corruption in the government, gossip, etc. That’s so embarrassing about the current issues happen right now, isn’t it? I also don’t like to watch too much teleseryes where their storylines are quite similar to other teleseryes shown in the past. And I hate to watch foreign movies, mostly from Hollywood, that are always tagalized (translated to Filipino) in most TV networks in the Philippines. Continue reading
Episode 184 – Monday, September 18th, 2017 (7566)
It’s hard to find a right job. Well, it has been 4-5 months since I became jobless and have hard times to look for a better job. My life has been boring especially when I stay at home all the times with lots of distractions and problems because of the illness of my eldest sister who sometimes calls me to help her to stand from her bed. In the past few months, I have applied several companies for my desire (or maybe not) job as a graphic artist/designer. But no one accepts my application even though I have been back and forth to go there for exams and interviews conducted by them. And most of the times, even after I already took an exam or a job interview, they never call me back at all. I’m so pissed because, being an applicant, they’re wasting my time and my money for my travel expenses, for the food that I eat during lunch, and for my payment to rent a computer in the internet café and to print my resumes several times.
At one time, I have been thinking to apply for my job abroad (just to have my own freedom). However, despite of having a bigger salary, I might become homesick (or probably not) and having some difficulties to work abroad because of the environment (by the way, I’m not fluent to speak English though). For more details, read Episode 152 that I published last May. Continue reading
Episode 181 – Sunday, September 3rd, 2017 (7551)
The year 2017 might not be another good year for me as last year (2016) because of many bad, tragic and unexpected incidents that happened most especially in my working career, in my finances, in my love life (I’m still single for two long years) and my family as well. Even though there are still four months remaining before the year 2018, it’s not enough to be considered this year as my good year. I’m still within the darker and worse times right now unlike three years ago.
Yeah, three years ago, my life was way, way better and more wonderful because I had lots of blessings and abundance. I had a better, nicer job that there’s a real convenience. I had a lovable girlfriend despite of having long distance relationship. I had a happy and healthy family despite that some misunderstandings. And of course, I had a great commitment with God as I continued to attend and to serve at The Feast. These best things made me and my life so wonderful and colorful. But these were already gone three years ago (except for my attendance and my service at The Feast), I totally miss the year with reminiscence to remember my past around few years ago particularly the year 2014. Continue reading
Episode 180 – Friday, September 1st, 2017 (7549)
Being jobless is one of the bad things happened in my life right now. It has been 4-5 months that I’m out of job. While I’m still searching for a new one, I spend my money to print a bunch of my resumes from the computer/internet shop that I rent and travel some places for the job interview and exam in which eventually I’m not qualified. And while I’m waiting for a job invitation on my phone, I’m so bored staying at home with lots of distractions especially none of my family members does have enough stable job or any source of income. That’s why I’m now in the darker times because of these struggles.
Four year ago, I was also jobless back then, but… it was quite different what I have right now. Continue reading
Episode 176 – Monday, August 14th, 2017 (7531)
I’m so bored, and I can’t make my own free and relaxing time at home because of many distractions. At one time, I found an old movie from my laptop that I got from my former mentor and friend from the Feast four years ago. I already watched this movie before, but I just want to replay a Christian movie entitled “Facing The Giants” (2006) where one man coaching American football team in high school had many struggles in his life especially for his struggling team. But when he was tired for his struggles, he found himself miserable and started reading Holy Bible. Thus, it was the beginning of unexpected blessings in his life. After having a losing streak, he shared God’s words to his football players and made them into motivation leading his team to win several games en route to the championship (his underdog team, called as the Eagles, upset the heavy-favored Giants a.k.a. “Superteam Monstars” that choked and blew 23-14 lead, hehehe). His old car was replaced into new ones. And his wife became pregnant after failing many times. While I was watching that movie, I felt a mix of tears and joy because he, who was struggling in the beginning, began his winning streak to achieve his triumph. Continue reading
Episode 175 – Thursday, August 10th, 2017 (7527)
Right now, my life is somewhat dark and dull, and it’s even darker than what I had last year where distractions and disasters came, not only emotionally (love), but financially. It’s because I’ve been facing so many struggles in my life and also in my family as well. While I’m still jobless for five long months (officially, not included my ill-fated job stint in Cabuyao) and loveless (no girlfriend) for two months, there are things and unexpected situations that came and distracted even worse. My elder brother has been jobless for three years, and my privacy and personal time in my “own” bedroom has been vanished because of him (his bedroom is connected to mine thru one entrance door). My father has been recovered from mild stroke two years ago, and he barely stands and walks because of his condition. However, there are some times that I get annoyed because of his orders that he can’t do especially throwing his urinal (he can’t go to the bathroom because he can’t walk further). My mother has also been suffered from some illness such as high blood pressure. And lately, my eldest sister has been suffered from an illness that weakens her body, and she barely stands and walks straight due of her condition. As the breadwinner of our family (she’s the only one who has stable job among us), she was hospitalized for almost one week, and the worst, she has been out of work for weeks because of her illness. Continue reading
Episode 174 – Sunday, August 6th, 2017 (7523)
Today is my birthday! But for me, it’s just a simple, ordinary day because I don’t make myself happy on my birthday due of many struggles and problems that I’ve faced right now. For the first time since 2013, I celebrate my birthday while I’ve been out of work. Yeah, it’s my birthday, but I’m still jobless (and loveless) though. And it’s also the first time to celebrate my birthday in the darker times. It’s so dark, isn’t it?
Since Post-College/Working Career Era, this is my third birthday that I have no job. In 2010, right after my college graduation (but not mentioned my ill-fated, short-lived job stint with a deaf entrepreneur in Mandaluyong), I was still looking for my first ever job when I celebrated my birthday. It was my first birthday as I was no longer a student. I got my first job two months after. And in 2013, two months after I left from working a printing company in Mandaluyong (because of freaking workers who bullied me), I celebrated my birthday while I was searching for my new job which was granted in early 2014 – my best year ever. However, unlike in 2010 (and also in 2017), my birthday in 2013 was somewhat better despite of being jobless during that time. That was because I had a wonderful life back then. I enjoyed being solo in my bedroom while my elder brother was working abroad. I started to attend Feast (when it was held every Saturday evenings at Central Mall Biñan). And of course, I had a long distance relationship with my textmate/girlfriend. These were only my bright sides while I was out of work in 2013. Continue reading
Episode 173 – Monday, July 31st, 2017 (7517)
I have been out of work for almost five months, but I still don’t understand why I can’t find a right company that is suitable for me to work as a graphic artist/designer. I have already shown my impressive interviews, exam performance, and even my portfolios, but sadly I’m still not qualified to be one of the newest employees of the company. I don’t know their reasons, but I guess because of my background (I was studying in a deaf school) or of having some speech problems (although I now have a clear speech). And I think they might be impressed on my portfolios that fill with my artworks, but I don’t know why.
Being graphic artist/designer might be the one of the simplest but complicated jobs that I’ve ever done in my working career. When I was young, I loved creating drawings on my old notebooks. But I never learned a lot about graphics and multimedia when I was in college although I got some lessons from the Information Technology (I.T.) course that I took. Most of the lessons that I learned and studied from college were programming and creating a software system. But I never pursued these after college graduation. Instead, I went other field to become a graphic artist because that was one of my instincts when I was young as I loved drawings. When I had my first ever job, I immediately learned the techniques in graphic designing and software such as Adobe Creative Suites. And after years of work, I have lots of experiences about this field. Continue reading
Episode 168 – Friday, July 14th, 2017 (7500)
Last episode, I discussed about the communication between SMS and Facebook Chat where I’ve used both mostly thru cellphone. For many years, I usually used my cellphone for texting where it was the way to communicate and to connect my friends in a distance including the one who accidentally became my textmate and eventually my first ever non-deaf girlfriend. However, right after the end of long distance relationship (LDR), my text communication has been declined and lost its glory and dominance. But in exchange, I’ve now communicated with my beloved friends thru chat thanks to the free Facebook data that I’ve used thru mobile phone.
In the past two years of Post-LDR Era (after the break-up or post-June 2015), I connected all the data from SMS and Facebook chat messages that I have to compare these two ways of communication. Continue reading
Episode 167 – Sunday, July 9th, 2017 (7495)
In the emergent of new technology, we have now convenience to connect with someone anywhere in the world. During the old times, people needed to wait for so long to receive handwritten letters from their loved ones. Telegrams and telephones were invented, but they were so costly so that only some may afford to use these to stay connected. But thanks to the advanced technology entering 21st century, we don’t need to write on a piece of paper or to pay public phones, and instead we only need our cellphones to have communication with someone. Continue reading