Episode 190 – Saturday, October 21st, 2017 (7599)
In my present situation, I no longer have better things that I once had before. It’s because I don’t have a stable job, love life, a happy and healthy family, freedom, and of course, happiness. Almost every day, I rent a computer in the internet café to apply jobs online. Almost thrice a week, I wash the clothes for our family. And almost every time, I help my father to throw his urinal (he can’t do it alone due of his disability after suffering mild stroke two years ago) and my sister to rise up from her bed due of her illness (she might lose her stable job because of this). And almost every day, I have done nothing but to wait for some miracles in my life and also in my family as well.
Within 7 days of week, Saturday is one of few times that I have something “happy”. It is the time for me to have enough rest from household tasks or my “free time” only for the short time in my present life. Yeah, this is my present time. But 3-5 years ago, Saturday was so special for me especially the times when I had a better job and wonderful love life.
Episode 189 – Monday, October 16th, 2017 (7594)
It’s already in the middle of October, but as you know, I’m still in the darker times where struggles are present in my life. In the past 6-7 months, I still don’t have any stable job or income at all. Although I have enough saving on the bank (thanks to my backpay from my previous job), I’m afraid that anytime soon it might be gone away because of the expenses that I need such as travel going to the job interview, food for my lunch while job hunting, and renting a computer at the internet café to search job vacancies online. I also decided to hold my monthly healthcare that I had commit to pay since three years ago because I don’t have any income right now as I’m still jobless (this might ruin my future goals, thanks to my former college classmate who encouraged me to join for the financial literacy even though I don’t really have many friends to be on my downline). Continue reading
Episode 186 – Wednesday, September 27th, 2017 (7575)
In my current situation, I feel unhappy because of many struggles and problems that I’ve faced right now. Health problems in my family have affected my life at home because of my eldest sister suffering her illness. Distractions are always there especially at home because of my elder brother who has been jobless for three years where his bedroom is “shared” my bedroom thru one door and of my parents. And I have been exhausted in waiting for some miracles in my life because until now I still have no job (for 5-6 months) and no girlfriend (for 27 months) at all. That’s why my life has been so boring right now because of these freaking problems making my happiness ruined.
But there are things that I might be thinking of. These situations might not happen if I supposed to live in a comfortable and happy life and the distractions won’t come. What if… all these things that already happened in my life didn’t happen at all? What if… I might not be the same as what I have been right now? And what if… these good and wonderful things that I had before still exist until now?
Since I have been living in the City of Santa Rosa, Laguna for 25 years (actually just 24 and I’ll explain it later on), I just want to share about 25 what ifs that might change my entire life forever. These might alter my present life in the fullest. Few of these are already discussed in my past episodes in this blog, but I now explain more alternate scenarios that might not be the same as what I have right now. Continue reading
Episode 185 – Sunday, September 24th, 2017 (7572)
While I’m still jobless (and loveless, as well), I’m so bored when I’m staying at home with lots of distractions and, sometimes, negativity. My usual activities at home while I’m still looking for a new job are washing the clothes in the morning (twice or thrice per week), washing the dishes (mostly after breakfast and lunch), cleaning the living room (probably weekly or within two weeks), and never ending house tasks (panay utos nang utos, I mean) ordered by my father and my eldest sister who both have their illness (they can’t do or stand on their own). And while I’m in idle times, I just open my laptop to write (or to type rather) my latest and throwback stories for my blog. Aside of eating three important meals every day, I just do watching TV with my family but not at all.
Yeah, I like to watch TV either with my family or alone in one bedroom but nowadays I feel I’m now losing my desire to watch TV because the programs and live shows broadcasted from the Philippine TV are quite boring. Sorry, to be honest, I’m no longer interested to watch TV shows from the Philippines anymore except for sporting events such as PBA or Gilas Pilipinas tournaments. It’s because of non-sense programs (and even commercials) especially in live news programs where they always deliver negative issues in our beloved country – dirty politics (especially those who are Dutertards or Yellowtards), crimes, corruption in the government, gossip, etc. That’s so embarrassing about the current issues happen right now, isn’t it? I also don’t like to watch too much teleseryes where their storylines are quite similar to other teleseryes shown in the past. And I hate to watch foreign movies, mostly from Hollywood, that are always tagalized (translated to Filipino) in most TV networks in the Philippines. Continue reading
Episode 184 – Monday, September 18th, 2017 (7566)
It’s hard to find a right job. Well, it has been 4-5 months since I became jobless and have hard times to look for a better job. My life has been boring especially when I stay at home all the times with lots of distractions and problems because of the illness of my eldest sister who sometimes calls me to help her to stand from her bed. In the past few months, I have applied several companies for my desire (or maybe not) job as a graphic artist/designer. But no one accepts my application even though I have been back and forth to go there for exams and interviews conducted by them. And most of the times, even after I already took an exam or a job interview, they never call me back at all. I’m so pissed because, being an applicant, they’re wasting my time and my money for my travel expenses, for the food that I eat during lunch, and for my payment to rent a computer in the internet café and to print my resumes several times.
At one time, I have been thinking to apply for my job abroad (just to have my own freedom). However, despite of having a bigger salary, I might become homesick (or probably not) and having some difficulties to work abroad because of the environment (by the way, I’m not fluent to speak English though). For more details, read Episode 152 that I published last May. Continue reading
Episode 183 – Saturday, September 16th, 2017 (7564)
Typhoon Maring (Doksuri, over the Philippine map area) made its landfall last Tuesday, September 12, 2017 (Screenshot courtesy from philnews.ph)
Just last week, the weather was like summer where we experienced high temperatures and extreme heat. It also made my home just like an oven where I and my family got “baked” and full of sweat even we extremely focused on our electric fans. But earlier this week, it became a bad weather because of a typhoon. I just wonder last Sunday I got so sweated because of hot weather and then suddenly, on the next day, the weather became so bad because of heavy rains due of Typhoon Maring.
Well, there have been several tropical storms and typhoons that I have encountered, either when I’m in home or in school and workplace before, in the past 12 years since I came back from the United States (or post-U.S. life era). I have some notable occasions. Continue reading
Episode 182 – Friday, September 8th, 2017 (7556)
It’s already September. And although I’m not an American or living in the United States, it’s the start of the (American) football season where college football teams are now playing against each other as well as the beginning of the new season of National Football League (NFL). While I’m waiting for the opening season of the National Basketball Association (NBA) after lots of “drama” during offseason (Hello, Kyrie Irving), I’m so excited to get some updates for the upcoming season of NFL as well as Major Baseball League (MLB).
Unfortunately, since I became jobless and my former “exile country” in San Pedro was already dissolved, I will be unable to watch these games, particularly some primetime games from NFL, thru internet live streaming. As you know, I don’t have internet connection at home even the 4G signal has been slow and disrupted most of the times. I can rent a computer from the internet café outside, but I will waste my time and my money (around 12-15 pesos per hour and the internet connection is sometimes disrupted). And since most of the games are broadcasted in primetime TV within 12 hours apart, I can’t watch these live in the morning up to noon at the internet café even though I already tried this situation only once when I watched 2015 World Series. If ever I have a job right now, I can’t even watch these live games thru internet inside the office while working (or else I will be caught for sure). One more thing, I can watch these, either live or delayed, thru cable TV, but I don’t even have cable TV at home, and it is rare to broadcast some games from NFL or MLB in the Philippines via cable (only NBA is the most watched by most Filipino basketball fans). Continue reading
Episode 181 – Sunday, September 3rd, 2017 (7551)
The year 2017 might not be another good year for me as last year (2016) because of many bad, tragic and unexpected incidents that happened most especially in my working career, in my finances, in my love life (I’m still single for two long years) and my family as well. Even though there are still four months remaining before the year 2018, it’s not enough to be considered this year as my good year. I’m still within the darker and worse times right now unlike three years ago.
Yeah, three years ago, my life was way, way better and more wonderful because I had lots of blessings and abundance. I had a better, nicer job that there’s a real convenience. I had a lovable girlfriend despite of having long distance relationship. I had a happy and healthy family despite that some misunderstandings. And of course, I had a great commitment with God as I continued to attend and to serve at The Feast. These best things made me and my life so wonderful and colorful. But these were already gone three years ago (except for my attendance and my service at The Feast), I totally miss the year with reminiscence to remember my past around few years ago particularly the year 2014. Continue reading
Episode 180 – Friday, September 1st, 2017 (7549)
Being jobless is one of the bad things happened in my life right now. It has been 4-5 months that I’m out of job. While I’m still searching for a new one, I spend my money to print a bunch of my resumes from the computer/internet shop that I rent and travel some places for the job interview and exam in which eventually I’m not qualified. And while I’m waiting for a job invitation on my phone, I’m so bored staying at home with lots of distractions especially none of my family members does have enough stable job or any source of income. That’s why I’m now in the darker times because of these struggles.
Four year ago, I was also jobless back then, but… it was quite different what I have right now. Continue reading
Episode 179 – Tuesday, August 29th, 2017 (7546)
August is almost done, and the “Ber” months will be coming within few days. But before flipping our calendars into another new month, this August is not so good for me. Despite that this is my birth month (born on August 6th), it seems somewhat not so wonderful because of bad happenings occurred within this month.
While I’m still jobless for few months, I feel so desperate and bothered at home because of the distractions. My eldest sister is still ill where she can’t rise from her bed and stand up on her own. That’s why she (almost) always calls me to help her to stand up. Even though she still walks, she’s unable to work at her job due of her illness (by the way, she was the only one who had stable job until she became ill). Continue reading