Loss of Appetite

Episode 164 – Friday, June 23rd, 2017 (7479)

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In the past several weeks since I lost my job, my life became boring once again. I have no work, no girlfriend, encountered distractions at home, and every time when I’m going around after my job application, I just walk around the mall alone, unaccompanied, and lonely. And even I have my cellphone that I’ve done anything to get rid my boredom, still I feel so bored because nobody text or chat me on my phone. I feel there’s something missing in my life right now.

Since post-LDR era which it has been now two years already, my life is now so dull with mediocrity. I’m always thinking about my past life where it was way, way back better than what I have right now. I really miss the moment. But since I became single and loveless, I began to lose my appetite to do for my happiness. My happy days were gone. Continue reading

Similarities Between Jose Rizal and Me

Episode 163 – Monday, June 19th, 2017 (7475)

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Today is the 156th birthday of Dr. Jose Rizal, our national hero that he fought our country for freedom against the Spanish regime during late 19th century. He was a great genius to distribute his works in the Philippine history. He was a physician, educator, engineer, businessman, historian, farmer, botanist, essayist, linguist, musician, poet, novelist, painter, psychologist, sculptor, surveyor, traveler, zoologist, and more. But because of him, some of my things and happenings were almost similar to what Rizal did during his times. In this episode, I just want to share you about my things that are almost or somewhat similar to our national hero. There are my top 10 lists: Continue reading

The Day That Made Me So Happy

Episode 162 – Saturday, June 17th, 2017 (7473)

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Hi there! Today is June 17, and it’s just an ordinary day for everyone, including yours truly. But just few years ago, June 17 was a special day for me because it was the day that made me so happy most especially in my love life. Exactly five years ago, I didn’t expect that I finally had a girlfriend who was my long distance textmate. Yup, she’s my first (and only) textmate that I ever had after she accidentally sent a wrong text message to me in one breezy afternoon of February 2011. And I never thought that she was the “key” to break my 7-year love drought (or having no girlfriend) and the curse that I had after transferring from so-called “Deaf World” in 2005. Continue reading

Watching NBA Finals

Episode 161 – Tuesday, June 13th, 2017 (7469)

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The Golden State Warriors winning their second NBA title in three seasons after defeating the Cleveland Cavaliers, 129-120, in Game 5 of NBA Finals (Photo courtesy from ESPN)

Earlier today (Philippine time), I watched the Game 5 of the 2017 NBA Finals between defending champions Cleveland Cavaliers and Golden State Warriors. Although I didn’t watch the whole game (I didn’t know why but feel some restless), I found out that the Warriors led in the 4th quarter and in the end, they won the game 129-120 over the Cavaliers to end the series, 4 games to 1. Kevin Durant, coming from his former team, Oklahoma City Thunder during offseason, was awarded as Finals Most Valuable Player, and it was his first ever NBA title for his 10th season. This is the third straight time that these two great teams meet in the Finals where the Warriors won in 2015 while the Cavaliers regained to win their first ever championship after coming back from 3-1 deficit. Continue reading

Why I Am Still Not Married Yet?

Episode 160 – Sunday, June 11th, 2017 (7467)

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June is the month of many couples who are excited to be married. Marriage is the significance of entering a new family for the couples, especially the young ones. Still remember when I was young, my elder siblings and my niece or nephew had attended the wedding of one of our relatives or their friend as bridesmaid, grooms men or flower girl. However, despite of these, I have never attended any single wedding at the church almost in my whole life. The only occasion from my memory that I attended a wedding was when I was about 4 or 5 years old as flower boy (or something like that) with my partner who, incidentally, was my childhood playmate that up to this day she’s remained a “mystery”, and the wedding was held in non-Catholic chapel (I think it was Iglesia ni Cristo because of my relative’s religion). Up to this day, I have never attended any single wedding of my friends or relatives because they didn’t even invite me. Hehehe!

Two years ago, one of my former officemates in San Pedro invited me and my boss to attend the reception after he married with his long-time partner. Earlier this year, one of my Feast friends, who serve in Media Ministry, married with her long-time boyfriend that entered her marriage life. These newlywed couples are younger than me (within late 20s except for my former officemates who is already in mid-30s) while I am still single and unmarried! My God! I’m already 30, but still I have no girlfriend, fiancée, or even live-in partner! Damn! Continue reading

Remembering My Second Job

Episode 159 – Friday, June 9th, 2017 (7465)

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This is Eastgate Centre in Mandaluyong where I worked there as a graphic designer at RR Donnelley for one year in 2012-13.

After my college graduation, I got my first ever job in Alabang where it started my career growth and made new friends. However, despite of my happiness with my work colleagues, I was unhappy at all because of mismanagement, project dissolution, and internal issues in the company located in Alabang, Muntinlupa. I tried to resign from there several times and to apply other companies, but I failed. It’s not until when I finally found one company in Mandaluyong that suited my career life.

RR Donnelley (RRD) is a business process outsourcing (BPO) company that provides print, business services and documents. Named after Richard Robert Donnelley in 1864, it was a Fortune 500 company with its headquarters in Chicago, United States, and this was the leading provider of printing business such as brochures, business cards, invitations, and even larger documents such as books. Some said that RRD was the “brother” of RH Donnelley who became Dex One, one of the projects where I worked there in Alabang. Continue reading

What If… I Didn’t Enter In A Deaf School?

Episode 158 – Monday, June 5th, 2017 (7461)

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Today, most of the Filipino youths all over the country have been returning back to their school for the opening of the classes. Most are excited, some are nervous, but some of the kids are afraid and crying after being left by their parents/guardians or whatever. Last episode, I discussed about my life in the past being a student where there were lots of good and bad memorable moments happened during my school life. But some of my friends were asking me, “Why did you study in a deaf school even though you can hear and speak?” Hmmm… that’s complicated question that probably until now it has been a “mystery”. But I simply answered why I put there instead of a “normal” (non-deaf) school before because of my speech deficiency (or in other word: pagkabulol or tongue-twisted). Yeah, even until today, I’m still tongue-twisted every time when I speak or talk with somebody.

However, despite of my ability to hear and to speak (not so loud and clear), I was still enrolled in a deaf school which was Philippine School for the Deaf (PSD), and I studied there for a long time with consistent honors which made me into “supremacy” over my classmates who are totally deaf. Well, that’s already written in my history books where my school life was begun at PSD back in 1994 and continued being a “deaf” student for 11 years until, when I came back from my wonderful experiences in the United States, I was surprisingly transferred to a non-deaf institution which lasted for 5 years until my college graduation in 2010. Continue reading

When I Was A Student…

Episode 157 – Thursday, June 1st, 2017 (7457)

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Millions of Filipino children will be back to school on the first day of classes which will be on this Monday, June 5. But I’m thinking that I really miss being a student attending classes at school when I was young.

For all kids and youths out there, tomorrow will be back to school once again. And many of the parents are so busy buying school materials for their children. Tomorrow will be the start of school year 2017-2018 where millions of young Filipinos will gather to enter their first day of classes in most public schools in our country. Most of them are so excited to see their old friends and classmates (as well as their crushes) again while the others are entering in school for their first time that mostly are nursery or kinder, and they usually cry after being left by their guardians in school. But some are the new ones after being transferred from their old school to another making them as new classmates.

I still remember when I was just a young student I felt I hated to be at school because I would rather like to play all the time at home. But in the years to come, when I grew up as a teenager, I realized that I needed to study hard to accomplish my dreams. Just before becoming a career man, although I’ve still no job as of now, I faced the tough challenges that I needed to overcome as a student such as exams, thesis, and projects to pass to the next level. These took many years to achieve the challenges from a young kid to a young man with full of knowledge. Continue reading

My (Not) First Job

Episode 156 – Tuesday, May 30th, 2017 (7455)

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(Note: this may contain some harsh criticisms that I expressed so badly and some displeasures about the incident that I did before.)

It has been few weeks after I lost my job, and I feel so bored at home because I’m just idle for almost whole day and my house is so hot like an oven. I still remember when I had a new job in Cabuyao before I just stayed in the air-conditioned office to get rid the heat outside. But every time when I started my new day of work there, I got so sweated on my arrival because I took my bike going there from home. And not only that, I needed to find the keys covered with sticker tapes from the main office to unlock several padlocks in order to open the many doors/gates of the building. These caused my time consumed because I must do this in time before logging in on the timecard or else I would be late after opening these locked gates and doors of the office. Whew… At the time of work, I supposed to take my job so easily, but my officemates started to take some annoying jokes that I felt they verbally bullied me. I knew they’re just joking at me, but I didn’t like the way that they joked while I was busy working in front of the computer. This caused me pressure and filled almost anger because of what they did which hurt my feelings. Continue reading

Feast SMSR Summer Outing

Episode 155 – Sunday, May 28th, 2017 (7453)

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Before the summer season ends (although it’s almost rainy season), there was a summer outing for the servants of Feast SM Sta. Rosa (SMSR), led by Bro. Dreus Cosio. It was announced during the second week of May and posted on Facebook. When I read about this, I was so excited about it because, for the rarest time, there would be summer gathering from Feast SMSR (I don’t know if this would be the first time or there were summer outings in the past). For me, this was my first time since last year to have a summer gathering with my friends, and it was also the first from a non-corporate organization (a company where I worked or affiliated). Also, since my college graduation back in 2010, it was my only fifth time to join a swimming outing with them after 2010 – with my former college classmates, 2012 – with my work colleagues from Alabang, 2014 – with my friends from HOT Team, and 2016 – with my officemates from San Pedro. (Note: except for last year, all of these happened in overnight swimming although in 2014 we stayed in a hotel overnight before some of us swam on the next morning.) I know most of my former college classmates, friends and former work colleagues have been summer outing every year provided by some companies where they’ve worked there. But for me, I never have experienced any summer outing provided by a company throughout my career life (in 2016, I and my work colleagues had our “company” summer outing, but our company didn’t provide the outing because it was just only small, employed only four people, including myself). Continue reading