What If… Textmate and LDR Did Not Happen

Episode 23 – Monday, September 28th, 2015 (6845)

Having a textmate then falling in-love with her was already happened in my life in the past four years..., but what if all these things didn't happen?

Having a textmate then falling in-love with her was already happened in my life in the past four years…, but what if all these things didn’t happen? (Photo courtesy from wattpad.com)

It has been three months since I’ve been loveless, and I’m still thinking about searching for the “Right One” because of my maturity (I’m in near 30s). There are some times that I feel sad and desperate where someone is happy with his/her own love life (or love relationship) even when they are still young. In the past three years, I was very happy to have a fruitful love life when I had a girl from the North who gave me love, love, and love. But in the past three months, she has been no longer in my heart because she “left” me for some complicated reason.

But if ever we continued our long distance relationship, we had been blessed by Lord for having a strong love relationship despite of having long distance. Well, I miss that thing, but I need to move on for that. Three years of having a love relationship is somewhat wasted, and I’ve been hurt for that because of my sacrifice to travel further only to see and to be with that person whom I loved most. But… I have a question… what if… having a textmate and having a long distance relationship with her didn’t happen? There are too many explanations for this. Continue reading

Weekend Away From Home

Episode 22 – Wednesday, September 23rd, 2015 (6840)

Gathering lunch together at KFC after Sunday Feast in SM City Santa Rosa (Photo courtesy by Stella Tupas on her Facebook post)

Gathering lunch together at KFC after Sunday Feast in SM City Santa Rosa (Photo courtesy by Stella Tupas on her Facebook post)

Last weekend, I supposed to have my “full” rest day. However, because of many distractions in the house (most especially to my jobless elder brother who is always calling my name sounded like a goat), I just decided to leave from “toxic” house to go somewhere. This was my first weekend to not stay at home for my rest day since I’ve been no longer in a relationship for three months now.

Last Saturday, I was thinking if I took a bicycle going to St. Clare Monastery for my morning prayer after my warm-up exercise. It was already 7 o’clock in the morning, and I would be late to take my biking exercise going there (via “shortcut key”). So, I just decided to leave the house because it was not enough for me to take my concentration while in day-off mode, and I didn’t like what my jobless elder brother calling my name again and again and again! (Gosh! I’m so tired to hear him calling my name!) After taking my bath, I just ate a simple breakfast then immediately left from the house. Continue reading

Getting Tired

Episode 21 – Friday, September 18th, 2015 (6835)

Right now, I’m really not feeling well because of flu and heavy cough that I have for almost a week. However, there are some times that I can’t get enough rest especially in my (own) bedroom because of many distractions in the house particularly my jobless elder brother who is always calling my name just like yelling a goat. I really, really hate to be with him in two connected bedrooms that we shared because he’s so makulit! I also can’t concentrate on what I’m doing in my “own” office (inside my bedroom) because of him who always walks around, back and forth to his bedroom. I supposed to have a plan to “separate” or “divide” my bedroom from his, but I know he’s so skeptical and getting temper on what I’m complaining about. Siya na nga gumawa hindi maganda, eh siya pa ang galit (kung naiinis ako)! I could tell my offense about his “bullying” to my mother, but I know if ever she warns him he would get mad at me because he’s older than me, and I’m the youngest sibling (bunso). I feel so discriminated when I’m in the house. I was happy when he was not in home because he was on abroad working as Overseas Filipino Worker (OFW), but I became devastated when he became jobless after he decided to not return his job in Saudi Arabia. Continue reading

Searching for the “Right One”

Episode 20 – Wednesday, September 16th, 2015 (6833)

Searching for love? Might it be achieved for months or years? Hmmm...

Searching for love? Might it be achieved for months or years? Hmmm…

It’s already “ber” months, but it has been 12 weeks since I’ve been loveless and single. And I’m thinking it’s time to move on from the break-up of my former love and to look for my next love adventure. However, because I’m in near 30s, my love system has been declined in terms of having a courtship to look someone who will be my girl forever. So it will be hard time for me to handle besides I don’t really have too much socialize other friends (especially those who are not too closed to me) due of not being shyness but of my personality.

I have 12 “complicated” reasons that someone must be perfect (or some optional) in my heart. (Note: these are just my suggestions only that I might be serious implementing on these to have a perfect relationship.) Continue reading

Reconstruction

Episode 19 – Friday, September 11th, 2015 (6828)

The devastated World Trade Center after the attack (left) and the new rebuilt World Trade Center with 9/11 Memorial (right)

The devastated World Trade Center (WTC) after the attack (left) and the new rebuilt WTC with 9/11 Memorial (right)

Today is September 11th, and it has been exactly 14 years when the world stopped turning. The terrorists attacked the United States after hijacking passenger airplanes and crashed into World Trade Center (WTC) in New York, The Pentagon near Washington, D.C., and another in Shanksville, Pennsylvania, and claimed lives of many innocent people. This attack led U.S. into war against the terrorists.

I still remember the happen when I was a teenager and studying first year high school at a deaf school in Pasay. I was unaware on the night of September 11, 2001 (in the Philippines) when the attacks occurred (on the morning in the U.S.) then I woke up on the next (early) morning, preparing for my school, when I heard on the radio reporting the breaking news about the happening in the U.S. Suddenly, I turned on the TV set to watch the live news where the ironic twin towers (WTC) in New York were gone and covering the dust and ashes around the city. Within the days after the attack, I was focusing to watch news about this that shocked many people around the world. Continue reading

Attending at the Feast – My Comeback

Episode 18 – Tuesday, September 8th, 2015 (6825)

My friends from Feast SM Sta. Rosa (Photo courtesy from Stella Tupas on Facebook)

My friends from Feast SM Sta. Rosa (Photo courtesy from Stella Tupas on Facebook)

Last Sunday, it was my rest day, and I had my free time to do things that I missed. And my jobless elder brother was not at home, so I was alone at my “own” bedroom to have my private time for the first time in more than two months! But on that morning, I was willing to go at SM City Sta. Rosa to attend Sunday Feast. This was my first time to attend the Feast in two months.

I departed home around 9:45 in the morning, and without heavy traffic, I came at the mall around 25 minutes before the Sunday Feast would be held at 10:30. I met some of my friends especially in Media Ministry that I missed so much. I came and met Sis Tess who was busy instructing the preparation with Lanie. I was sitting and waiting for a while before starting the session. And because I missed to serve in Media Ministry, she assigned me to hold the video camera for the event. Continue reading

What if… I Have Lived with a Happy (and Positive-Minded) Family?

Episode 17 – Tuesday, September 1st, 2015 (6818)

Every day in almost entire of my life (except 2004-2005) since I was born, I’ve been with my family together in one home. But our home is not as sweet as you thought, and my family is not as much as good family. Except my elder siblings who are already married and have their own responsibilities with their own family, my family has been the same as in the past even before I went to United States in 2004-2005 for an exchange program. My father is still choleric although he was suffered mild stroke early this year while my mother has been in high blood and deafened. My eldest sister, who is now in near 50s, has been working in a factory while my elder brother, who is 15 years older than my age and was an OFW, is currently jobless and so makulit every time when he always calls my name again and again, like a goat, to have a “massage” on him (I know he’s joking but NOT really nice for me). Continue reading